Chapter forty eight

By the look on my ma's face I knew she was going after Antonia. I had to resign my self to the fact that there was nothing I could say or do to prevent the monstrous Bongiovi wrath rolling her way.
When the detective called my ma was in the room but totally unfocused in what was being discussed, Matt and me together gave all the information we could. My ma was sat in the chair with a half sneer, half smile on her face. Years of knowing my ma told me anytime she called you dear there was trouble and a storm was gathering and about to erupt.

When my ma said good night, she left me with my new cell and promised to call again tomorrow.  After she left I had a heavy very uncomfortable feeling in my stomach, that I could not shirk, my sleep was anything but peaceful.

Madison called in during the night, each time I was awake.
"still awake?, you know it's gone 1am? And you need to rest if you are going to recover?"
"Yeah I get that, and trust me I want to sleep, but my mind is so wired, I can't turn it off."
"wanna talk about it?"
" You don't mind?"
" nah, I've got a few minutes, and if you off loading helps, then I'm doing my job, so long as you try to sleep after."
I smiled, "I'll try, but no promises."
She sat next to me, and listened as I told her bout my mom, and what I thought she was planning. When I stopped madison asked a question.
"so what is worrying you more, your mom sorting out this psycho, or her getting hurt."
"both I guess, this ain't my ma's deal, and how's it gonna look when my ma is headline news getting all that unwanted press, all shit and lies...?"
Madison raised her eyes, her next sentence stunned me, " Oh right, so it's a male ego trip then? You don't want to be shamed by your mom?"
I took a breath, " what? no that's not it,...."
She interjected, " but it is, you have just said so, your worried your mom will succeed where you have failed..."
" madison, listen to me, I'm scared that Antonia will harm my mom,  I know my ma is strong, but Madison, this women aint in the real world, she is scheming and devious, my ma is hard core anger, but, I swear to god that wont be enough..." on a roll I let my thoughts pour out as I carried on, "  I'm young and can fight my way back to health, my mom is getting older, how you think this women will react huh? She has Hench men, ok, they slashed Matt coming into the hospital to visit me?, my ma has no idea just how bad this bitch is... what if she stabs or worse still shoots my ma, huh?, so I'm sorry, no shit I scared..."

"You mentioned the press, but don't you have people that can control that?"

I shook my head, "used to, but cause I'm headline news any information they can get on me they will print, the press don't give a fuck about me, my family, and how they hurt us. I used to be good at protecting us all, but since this shit started all I'm good at is failing..... I'm stuck in a hospital for Christ's sake."

"I'm sorry, I miss judged you, but it sounded as though you had an ego..."

"everyone has an ego, to a certain degree. You for example, you have an ego"

"Why must I?"

"cause everyone does... what is it you excel at?"

"I don't know I have never thought about it before,"

"Ok, what have you been praised for that has made you feel good and proud..."

Madison thought for a minute, "my job, I guess, and sailing..."

"right, when you feel proud that is part of your ego, your pleased with yourself, see its human nature.."  she nodded,

"I guess, so what you thinking of  with ya ma?"

"that's just it, I've tried to reason with her, but she aint listening, one thing about us Bongiovi's we are stubborn assoles sometimes, and right or wrong we do what we feel is right in our gut!"

"Then if there really is nothing you can do, why beat yourself up and give yourself a hard time... honestly, if nothing you have said has changed your ma's mind, what else can you do?"

I looked at Madison, I hated to admit it but her logic was making way to much sense.

She glanced at her watch, "ooh I better make a move, but I'll call back later, and I want to find you asleep ok, I've kept my side of the bargain, lets see if you can keep yours..."

she got off the bed and moved to the door, "well..."

I gave her the thumbs up, "Yes nurse, I'll do my best.."

she gave me a smile as she left.

 

After she left I picked up my new cell, my mum had gotten the mobile company to transfer my numbers stored on their computer system to my new cell, so everyone's number was in there for me, that made life a whole lot easier. I scrolled through the numbers, I found two names that I had thought of contacting, but this was gonna be a life or death situation, and there would be no going back... my thumb hovered over the call button, I thought about my mom, D and Matty and how three of us had sustained serious injuries cause of Antonia, I could not let me ma suffer too, I pressed the button... held the cell to my ear and waited...  "Kal?, its Jon, listen there's something I need for you to do for me. You up for it?"