Chapter forty four

The events of Matt's visit played heavy on my mind, I replayed the conversation over and over and over again; then the doubts and questions to myself, had I jumped the gun, was he really acting in my best interests? did he really betray me... if only the answer were that simple, but fact was they wasn't. I struggled trying to figure it all out.
By the time my mom visited again, I still had no direction. Matt was my baby brother, shit I needed to talk this through with Matt again... I needed to be able to make sense of it all.
the door to my room opened, I hoped it would be matt, but it wasn't it was my ma.
"Hey baby how are you today?"
I lied, "I'm good ma."
"Am I forgiven?" she asked with one foot in the door,
I nodded my head and smiled at her, she saw my smile so stepped into the room and took a seat next to me.
 I waited for her to talk about Matt, in the past when ever he had problems he ran straight to my mom, she had always been his crutch. When she never mentioned it, I was confused so tried the casual approach
"you seen Matt yet?"
"no, he was going to call by yesterday but changed his mind,  he said he would see me in a day or so, he mentioned coming to see you."
"yeah he did, he stayed a while and we sorted security before he left."
my mom sat in the chair next to my bed and eyed me suspiciously, I don't know how she did it but she had a bullshit detector like no other mom I know.
"He called to sort out security, why would he do that?"
"Yeah, after you left the other night Antonia came in just after you left, I rang Matt and asked him to call and sort out security, its no biggie ma."
"mmmm, why do I sense there is more to this than you are telling."
"More to what? there's nothing more to tell..."
"right, the women that has put you in hospital calls in, I assume scares the crap outta ya, you call Matt to call in and fix security, nothing more?"
"Ma, please I've told ya everything ya need to know..."
"Look son, it's none of my business, but I am scared for you, like Richie and Matt I want what's right and that is for this women to be arrested and put in jail, but for some reason my boys shut up and side together. Matt wouldn't tell me anything either."
"Ma, its cause there's nothing to tell ok?"
"well there is, its just you and Matt are siding together as normal... what is it with siblings and parents eh?"
I decided to change the subject. "Ma, can you go see D for me, she must be wondering where the hell I am, she's at her mom's. I promised to go see her."
"She doesn't know?"
"no, cause she doesn't, what you think I'd ring her from the hospital? on the payphone? and just casually announce,  hi babes, don't worry but my stalker struck and I've got a ruptured spleen, deflated lung, and  a possible fractured eye socket, multiple bruising and I've been raped... but I'll see you soon don't worry."
"Ok, ok I get it, no need for sarcasm..."
"well what the fuck you expect eh? "
"I'm sorry, that was stupid of me, of course I'll go see D, do you want me to tell her?"
I nodded my head, yeah, please, but tell her softly ok?"
my ma nodded her head. fidgeting she picked up her purse and produced a card, she handed it to me.
"Please Jon, call this detective,.... and before you sound off, let me say I explained it all, he has connected it with the reports and your lawyer and he wants to help?"
I rolled my eye's, "ma, please I'll do it all in my time ok?"
"Don't roll your eye's at me Jon Francis... I'm your mother..."
"I kissed her hand, "I know, and I've told you before ma, I'm a big boy I'll sort it."
There was a knock at the door, "Yo"
as the door opened Matt's head came round the door. "you ok for me to come in?"
"Sure?"
my mom was watching us both like hawks...
he came over and kissed my mom before standing at the end of my bed. " we good?"
I nodded, "Yeah were good"
he looked relieved and smiled. "well I've some news for ya, but I only called in for a few, I've got another appointment I need to go to, but I can be back around three if that's ok?"
"Sure, fine by me?"
" that's great, Ill call back then......" matt smiled and moved to the door, "Later's Mom..." then he was gone.
immediately he left, my mom started in, "Care to explain that?"
"not really no."
"mark my words Jon, I will find out what's going on and when I do...."
"please, give it up, it's of no concern to you, this is tour and band business ok?, if it was serious we would both tell ya."
"yeah sure you would... Not..."
my ma held her look of distain on her face, but for now she quit and at last spoke about the mundane things in her life, for now that did not include me or Matt.