Chapter Thirty Eight

My mom was really tentative, but also her domineering self, which drove me crazy, "Jon, I'm going to call the cops, and when they get here I want you to tell them everything. Ok?" I tired reasoning with her,
"No, look just leave it ok?, I'm a big boy I can sort this myself?"
Rich could not resist adding his comments too, "Oh sure you can, look at you?" being out numbered and laid up was not good, I had no where to run too. I tried again,
"Look, I made a bad call of judgement."
"You did what?, are you for freaking real? a bad call of judgement? seriously bro you need to go see a shrink cause something aint sitting right in that brain of yours......" he paced and stood by the window looking out to the city below, then he spun on his heels and started again,.
"Ok, lets forget the fact she is a psychotic fucking bitch who has stalked you for months, near broken your marriage, has more whacko family members than we can count, what about the injury to D and now you, she almost killed you, why because she wanted sex with you?, but you call it a bad judgement call? go figure cause I don't get it. you get beat up to an inch of your life... but that's a bad call of judgement.... so explain, enlighten us? I just gotta hear this?"
Then my mom too,
"Mmm so would I Richard..."

If only I could of got myself outta that bed, I would have took off, just gotten away for some peace and quiet, but I was stuck,  and with both my ma and Rich not letting go, I was getting moe and more pissed. I'd have given him the stink eye, but right now I couldn't even manage that.

Truth was, I was shaken by everything that had happened, a new experience for me, and I did not like it. I have to be in control and since all this crap had started, I had lost all control over my life, and what scared me more, I had no idea how to get it back, I was weak, exhausted and tired from it all.
Rich spoke again, "So you gonna tell us?"
then my mom, again... "Please Jonny, tell us, so we can understand"
a fire erupted in my belly as I croakily snapped...
"What you both want to know that I was beaten, gagged, tied up, stripped and had a pole shoved up my ass in a man rape, you wanna know I've been shackled and whipped, kicked black and blue? well guess fucking what, that's what happened, and to top it off, Tony aint the only one, no, he's a twin and his name is Dale and if I tell the cops D will be dead.... so, now you know, why don't you and my mom do your fucking best and beat me a little more eh,?"
I turned my head away as tears streamed down my face. my mom gently laid her hand on my arm.
I spoke calmer, but I was pissed off with both of them "Please mom, don't just go...."
"Bro, I'm sorry, I had no idea.... but you do see the cops need to know right?"
"Do what you want Rich, just leave me alone.... just go, both of you..."
"Jon... I "
turning my head back I snapped " I said go..."
my mom was adamant she wanted to stay and tried being over sweet, but I was not in the mood, first the Doc, then Rich and my mom, everyone telling me what to do... I just wanted to be alone....
"for the love of god will you both just fucking leave me alone.... GO!! "
Rich moved to the door, "I'm not giving in Jon, I'll make you see sense, and I'll be back tomorrow... sleep well buddy..." he left. My mom stood and had crocodile tears in her eye's, "Stop mom, for the love of god.... just go, ok?"
"I love you baby, your my son, I hate seeing you like this..."
"yeah I get it, now go please... I want to be alone..."
she bent down to kiss my forehead and moved my bangs from my eye's. "Ok sweetheart, I'll see you tomorrow... sleep tight..." reaching the door, she called back... "Love you..." before finally leaving and closing the door.
I breathed a sigh of relief and closed for eyes for no more than a second when my door opened again...
I was about to tell my mom to go again when another voice spoke...
"I've been listening, what a good boy you are Jonny..."
"Anotnia?, how the hell? what do you want?"
"What you agreed to do, she played my voice back she recorded what felt like only minutes ago...
eerily, I heard my voice "I-I want you..."
"So we need to complete that don't we..."
"I cant do anything, I'm not fit enough...you near killed me..." my sentences were rambled and not making any sense at all, but the fear in my chest was real and I was panicking inside, how could she be here at the hospital...
she neared the bed and sat on the edge, her hands caressing my face and neck and she slid her hands further, my body tensed as she traced around the bruises to my side and chest....
"Please leave, go, I've not told anyone... just leave me alone..."
"I will Jonny, all in good time, but I will have my night of sex with you, after all, this has all been pointless otherwise... and let me tell you, I do everything for a reason..." she got up from the bed and made her way to the door, "sweet dreams Jonny... see you soon..."