Chapter Fifty One

As Kal chewed his candy, I asked, "c'mon bud? Share the low down? "
"nothing to share, I swear" he held his hands up in protest... "So what did happen?"

"nothing really, me and ya ma went too pay her a visit, we chatted sure, it got heated then her and the rest of her posse took off at speed in her beat up Buick. She was pretty pissed"
I watched his body language, he seemed to be telling the truth, but I just know that he was still hiding something.
" right, and then you both left?"
" no, we followed her, we needed to be sure there would be no come back to you." he paused shaking more candy into his palm, he offered some to me, I refused, "and?, Kal stop dragging your butt...."
He smiled, "well that's the darndest thing, as we neared the brow of the incline on the highway, and started down the other side, we saw a truck in the distance coming towards us, both ma and me saw the driver leap out, so we parked up, and watched, "

"Oooh it was nasty, the truck crashed into the buick," he screwed his face to emphasize the drama... 

" you expect me to believe that bull?, man I've known you for too many years, now give me the god damn fucking truth?"
He tried to change the subject, "you want coffee? "
" no, thanks I want the fucking truth"
"I've told ya the truth"

"Stop, you know you aint, stop treating me like a child and just FUCKING TELL ME.."

my patience was stretched to the limit.

"Ok, ok, but you say nothing to ya ma, you swear that on my life bro?, I'm fucking serious?"

I shook my head, "No Jon, I mean fucking swear man or I aint saying jack shit?"

"alright already, I swear..."

Sitting next to me, he lent in close and spoke in a low near whisper, but loud enough I could hear him, every now and then he looked back over his shoulder to make sure no one was behind him or had crept into the room.

"See the other night when ya ma called, I went round to see her with spike, ya ma told me everything that had been happening to you guys, with this Antonia broad and her ma, so she had made this plan but needed our help to execute what she had in mind. Let me tell ya Jon, ya man wanted blood and that fucking bitch dead. "

"Dead?"

"Yeah man dead"

"go on"

"what I've told ya so far is half the truth..."

"so explain..."

"we met her and she had her boys with her, she threatened ya ma, told her if she did not get out of the way she'd have her killed... ya ma grabbed her so fast by the throat she had no time to act, her boys tried to intervene but me and spike took care of them, single bullet to the brain works every time.

and a slit throat... ya ma had her tight and made her watch. man she was terrified, as her boys fell ya ma let go, then ya ma told us to do the same to her,....."

"And that's when she took off in the car right?"

"right, ya ma would not let it lie, and so we followed in hot pursuit."

"The truck?"

he sneered, that was the bonus.... my brother Wigan, he drives a tuck, he had one at the yard that was to be scrapped, as far as his bosses were concerned that muther was driven to the scrap yard to be wrecked."

"but how you know where she would be heading?"

"we radioed in to Wigan... told him the road and he did the rest."

"But his boss will find out.."

"Nah, he'll just say the brakes failed on route and he had to jump out..."

I smiled, so all planned to perfection eh..."

Kal, looked at me, "not quite"

"what ya mean?"

"she's alive aint she?"

"barely.... you see her?"

Yeah, but until she's history man, were on shaky ground..."

"we have all got alibi's, so should be good, but were gonna have to wait and see..."

"you think the cops will work it out?"

"Nah, man they aint smart enough, but what we need you to do is keep up with that detective guy you know about pressing charges and stuff, take suspicion away..."

I shook my head,  just as Madison called in with my dinner tray, "Madison this is Kal my friend,"  

Kal immediately up on his feet, took Madison's hand and kissed the back, "pleased to meet you ma'am, look after my man here real good ok?"  

Madison looked at Kal, then me, then taking her hand back she replied, "of course it's my job..."

Kal then made his farewell and left... "catch ya on the flip side bro"  

Soon as he left Madison asked questions,

"who was he?"

"A lifelong friend, called in as my ma told him about me being here"

she busied herself with my obs, as she spoke... "I get a vibe from him..."

"Vibe?"

"yeah, something not good, you know?"

I played it down, nah he's a good guy"

"is he? I'm not sure, I could swear his face has been on TV and not in a good way..."

"nah, he's just got one of those faces.."

I began to feel a little nervous, Kal was the son of the Mafioso, if she aired her suspicions to the wrong person it could spell trouble for her, Kal would not waste a moments sleep taking her out, and I don't mean on a date. Somehow I had to convince her she was wrong. I changed the subject,

"So, when I get outta here, would ya like to come see me in concert, maybe share a drink or two and a meal after?"

she stood back , her hands on her hips, smiling at me she answered,

"but aint you a married man?"

my own response floundered me, "so?,"

 

Chapter fifty

The day dragged waiting for Kal to call to see me, I was nancy and getting more and more irritable by the second. Everytime my room door opened my heart near stopped. Ok, I knew he said he'd call around six, but, Well I was kinda hoping it'll be sooner you know.
Matt called in, he was stapled up and given pain meds and gotten his discharge. He was relieved, we hugged before he left. I spoke about ma and her plans with Kal, which matty was a little concerned about. " You think it will all be good?"
I shook my head, "Yeah I do"
"Why, how can you be so sure?, that bitch is a psycho,.... man, ma ain't used to that?"
"Matt, relax ok, it'll be good, trust me, ma has Kal in her corner, Antonia and those goons don't stand a chance."
"But,..."
"no buts bro, ma will be good already."
He raised his eyes at my confidence, he was still unsure, out of the two of us matt was far more sceptical and untrusting than I was... he continued to let his feelings be known...

"ok, but I hope you're right, I don't wanna be visiting you and ma...."

this time I snapped,

" trust me, stop being a jackass, that ain't gonna happen!"
" Oh Ok Mr smart ass, what makes you so god damn sure?" I calmed my voice and kept the sarcasm light...
" Ma was a marine, she has Kal, you know what the Romano family are right? Or you a dumbass too?" 
with a smile on my face I waited until the look of realisation finally registered with Matt, he smiled back at me and said no more.

Getting up he walked to the door, before he left he asked, "You'll call me right? " I shook my head, he half raised his arm in salute as the door closed behind him , after he'd gone I just watched the minutes and hours ticking by.
By the afternoon, all my nurses had been together with the Doctors and all agreed I was making remarkable progress, which was great news,  I could start making a plan to get myself outta there as soon as possible, my main focus being getting back to my tour and rebuilding my life with my wife. But, right now, I was again left alone.

With nothing to do I flicked on the tv for company, anything to break the silence that was deafening, I really wasn't paying much attention until a news report caught my eye.

" a young women, believed to be caught in the center of the Bon Jovi Scandal has been taken to Maryfield Hospital after a collision in her car with a runaway truck. The driver of the truck has not been found, Police are keen to speak with anyone that can give light on the incident. the number to call 555-3187-6588." Watching the screen they briefly showed Antonia being taken away on a gurney heading into the ambulance. Her car was in the background and there was not much left that you could say it was a car, it was just a mangled wreck, she was all blooded and looked in a pretty bad way too. I could not stop myself... "Pay backs a bitch aint it...Let that be a lesson, don't fuck with the Bongiovi's " I smiled to myself, but more than anything; I now wanted to see Kal., the questions were burning inside my brain.
I looked at the clock, 5.30pm, half an hour; maybe more, I was restless, I flicked through more channels trying to find something to occupy my restless mind, I found nothing.  Turning the set off, and with nothing to do but wait I tried closing my eye's, concentrating on my breathing I tried to sleep, but moments later my room door opened and in walked Kal, walking towards me he was all smiles
"Jon bro"
He lent in and hugged me, and immediately seated himself on the chair,

"Kal, so where's my ma?"
He answered casually still with a smile on his handsome face, " Oh, she's with my ma, there having dinner and catch up together,.... you know what there like right? ...." taking a pause he studied my injuries before announcing " So, you look like shit man,  you have a fight with a truck?" we both laughed as I replied,

"Something like that yeah" 

"so all gonna be good for you?"
I shook my head, " Yep, Docs say I'm gonna be fine," as nice as it was chatting about my well being I wanted answers...  looking him straight in the eye I asked, "so, what the fuck happened today?
He sneered, and laughed "Aw, nothing much, just a little pay back" he took a packet of candy from his pocket, opened the contents and put a couple in his mouth. his eyes twinkled as he winked, but he said no more.

Chapter forty Nine

Ending the call with Kal, it was agreed he was coming to see me, I breathed a sigh of relief and felt a little more relaxed, finally I closed my eye's, when I opened them next Madison was in my room, "Good Morning, I've been in a few times and you were out cold, " reaching for the familiar cuff she asked, Sleep well?"
I nodded, she changed the tramadol infusion, then sat at the end of the bed, "Your mom rang."
"she did? what she say..."
"It was all a little cryptic, but  her message was, "she was with Kal and you were not to worry if she did not visit today?... I know it's none of my business, but who is Kal?"
A frown settled in my forehead just above my nose, as I answered vacantly " a family friend"
"umm right, so why are you frowing?"
"because he was calling to see me..."
"Maybe he's taking your mum out for lunch before they both visit."
"well if that's the case, why my mom ring to say not to worry if she don't make it to see me today?"
I was trying to work but how and why Kal would be with my mom before we had discussed what I wanted...Sure he was a family friend, his whole family were, ever since my ma and pop were in the Marines with Kal's pop; but, the question remained why? When Madison was done with my obs she told me she would be back with my breakfast tray. As she left the room I rang my mom, It rang and rang and rang.... I was about to cancel the call when finally she answered. "Hello"
"mom, what's with the message?"
"good morning Jon, nice way to greet your mom, and drop the tone young man it does not suit you."
"sorry,... morning... Mom what's with your message please..."
"I thought it was clear, I'm going out with Kal today, he rang me late last night."
"He did?, why?"
my mom was getting irked by my questions, "I don't know, is this something I should ask every friend that calls from now on?"
I had to try a different method, I tried being softer, "No of course not ma, it just seems strange that he calls you out of the blue..."
I was getting no where, "really, I have had friends that call me out of the blue many times, and they are always the best calls... now do you want something important, cause I have to make ready to leave."
I gave in, "No, nothing, but Ma, be careful out there ok?"
"Jon, I'm a grown women with three sons, I'm a ex marine, I think I can take care of myself. Now rest plenty sweetheart, I'll see you tomorrow."
She ended the call before I could say anything more. I was real confused, Kal said he was coming to see me, why would he call my ma???, looking at my phone, I dialled Kal's number. He answered quickly, "Yo"
"Kal it's Jon,"
"Hey bro, how's it going?"
"Good, look, my ma said you are going to see her today?"
"Yeah she rang my mom last night, they were catching up and she asked if I could go see her and help with something she had to do today.."
the penny dropped, my ma was shrewd make no mistake, it was clear she had the same interest as I did. "she tell you what it was?"
"no, she said that i'd find out this morning, I'm just leaving to head over there now, want me to give her a message?"
"no, don't even tell her we spoke"
"ok, sounds bit weird, you and your ma ok?"
"Yeah were fine, let's just say we have the same vested interest."
"do what?"
"look, you calling to see me later still right?"
"Yeah, bout six, I guess if all gets done with ya ma.."
"that's cool, look I'll explain later ok?"
"Ok, you da man... "
"yeah right, later bud"
another call ended, I finally could relax, my ma was getting Kal to go with her I had no doubts, and later I'd hear all about it. I'd make sure of it.... I think I could have underestimated my ma...
I laid my head back on my pillow as a smile spread across my lips... now what's that saying... oh yeah "pay back is a bitch" and it was about to meet its best friend.....  Get ready Antonia.....

Chapter forty eight

By the look on my ma's face I knew she was going after Antonia. I had to resign my self to the fact that there was nothing I could say or do to prevent the monstrous Bongiovi wrath rolling her way.
When the detective called my ma was in the room but totally unfocused in what was being discussed, Matt and me together gave all the information we could. My ma was sat in the chair with a half sneer, half smile on her face. Years of knowing my ma told me anytime she called you dear there was trouble and a storm was gathering and about to erupt.

When my ma said good night, she left me with my new cell and promised to call again tomorrow.  After she left I had a heavy very uncomfortable feeling in my stomach, that I could not shirk, my sleep was anything but peaceful.

Madison called in during the night, each time I was awake.
"still awake?, you know it's gone 1am? And you need to rest if you are going to recover?"
"Yeah I get that, and trust me I want to sleep, but my mind is so wired, I can't turn it off."
"wanna talk about it?"
" You don't mind?"
" nah, I've got a few minutes, and if you off loading helps, then I'm doing my job, so long as you try to sleep after."
I smiled, "I'll try, but no promises."
She sat next to me, and listened as I told her bout my mom, and what I thought she was planning. When I stopped madison asked a question.
"so what is worrying you more, your mom sorting out this psycho, or her getting hurt."
"both I guess, this ain't my ma's deal, and how's it gonna look when my ma is headline news getting all that unwanted press, all shit and lies...?"
Madison raised her eyes, her next sentence stunned me, " Oh right, so it's a male ego trip then? You don't want to be shamed by your mom?"
I took a breath, " what? no that's not it,...."
She interjected, " but it is, you have just said so, your worried your mom will succeed where you have failed..."
" madison, listen to me, I'm scared that Antonia will harm my mom,  I know my ma is strong, but Madison, this women aint in the real world, she is scheming and devious, my ma is hard core anger, but, I swear to god that wont be enough..." on a roll I let my thoughts pour out as I carried on, "  I'm young and can fight my way back to health, my mom is getting older, how you think this women will react huh? She has Hench men, ok, they slashed Matt coming into the hospital to visit me?, my ma has no idea just how bad this bitch is... what if she stabs or worse still shoots my ma, huh?, so I'm sorry, no shit I scared..."

"You mentioned the press, but don't you have people that can control that?"

I shook my head, "used to, but cause I'm headline news any information they can get on me they will print, the press don't give a fuck about me, my family, and how they hurt us. I used to be good at protecting us all, but since this shit started all I'm good at is failing..... I'm stuck in a hospital for Christ's sake."

"I'm sorry, I miss judged you, but it sounded as though you had an ego..."

"everyone has an ego, to a certain degree. You for example, you have an ego"

"Why must I?"

"cause everyone does... what is it you excel at?"

"I don't know I have never thought about it before,"

"Ok, what have you been praised for that has made you feel good and proud..."

Madison thought for a minute, "my job, I guess, and sailing..."

"right, when you feel proud that is part of your ego, your pleased with yourself, see its human nature.."  she nodded,

"I guess, so what you thinking of  with ya ma?"

"that's just it, I've tried to reason with her, but she aint listening, one thing about us Bongiovi's we are stubborn assoles sometimes, and right or wrong we do what we feel is right in our gut!"

"Then if there really is nothing you can do, why beat yourself up and give yourself a hard time... honestly, if nothing you have said has changed your ma's mind, what else can you do?"

I looked at Madison, I hated to admit it but her logic was making way to much sense.

She glanced at her watch, "ooh I better make a move, but I'll call back later, and I want to find you asleep ok, I've kept my side of the bargain, lets see if you can keep yours..."

she got off the bed and moved to the door, "well..."

I gave her the thumbs up, "Yes nurse, I'll do my best.."

she gave me a smile as she left.

 

After she left I picked up my new cell, my mum had gotten the mobile company to transfer my numbers stored on their computer system to my new cell, so everyone's number was in there for me, that made life a whole lot easier. I scrolled through the numbers, I found two names that I had thought of contacting, but this was gonna be a life or death situation, and there would be no going back... my thumb hovered over the call button, I thought about my mom, D and Matty and how three of us had sustained serious injuries cause of Antonia, I could not let me ma suffer too, I pressed the button... held the cell to my ear and waited...  "Kal?, its Jon, listen there's something I need for you to do for me. You up for it?"

 

Chpter Forty Seven

ma's eyes were wide, and she was breathless, "ma come sit beside me." I patted the chair next to me, catching her breath she moved to the chair and took a seat. exhaling in and out she asked between breaths, "what did you mean sons?"
"ma, I don't want you to panic..."
"why what's happened, Jonny your scaring me..."
I did not want to say anything until Madison came back with some news, I tried to drag it out, unsuccessfully, "you get my cell?"
I was given a short one word answer, "Yes"
"can I have it?"
"when you tell me what is going on, quit stalling Jonny, what did you mean sons?"
I took a breath about to explain when Madison came back into my room.
She smiled at my mom, "All is good, it was a flesh wound, he lost a little blood, but he's fine, he fainted from shock...."
I smiled t Madison, "thank you, that's great news."
my ma sat looking from one to the other of us, "Will you please for the love of god tell me what is going on..."
Madison looked a little uncomfortable, I motioned for her to leave, she was grateful and took a quick exit.
taking my ma's hand, I started to explain; "Ma, matt is fine ok, remember that, but he was injured when he got here to see me earlier today."
"how was he injured?"
"Antonia, her hench's, they...."
"they what?"
"stabbed him."
my ma blinked her eyes three times digesting the information. she looked at me stunned. taking a deep breath she sat back and asked, "how?"
I had no option but to tell her what Matty was trying to do, from trying to befriend Antonia so he could learn her moves to try to protect me, to where the goons caught him at the hospital entrance in the parking lot and warned him what was to come if I do not comply with Antonia when I'm released.
she grabbed my hand, tears brimming in her eyes that softly flowed down her cheeks..." my poor babies..."
"ma, its ok, were both big boys, we can sort this..."
she looked at me with disbelief, "I don't think you can, look at you Jonny, and now Matty, my baby boy....no what this needs is a mothers touch..."
"Ma, please stay out of it..."
a steely look of determination set on her face and her lips were pursed into a fine line. she was past hearing me.
"Ma"
blinking she looked at me, she smiled and patted my hand, "Yes, Yes I know, I'll be fine.." then the look I had just seen returned.
Her zoned out expression changed only when there was a knock at the door, "Can we come in?"
Madison was with Matty, pushing him in a chair. "Hey there I have someone that wants to come see you and tell you he's ok? that alright?"
my ma leapt out of her seat and across to Matty, she smothered him in kisses calling him her baby, she only stopped when Matty said "enough ma, I can't breathe..." she then stood back panicked she had caused damage...
"I'm fine look, ..." he then looked at me, "Jonny, I'm sorry I got involved, and I'm sorry they got to me and that I scared you earlier... forgive me"
I nodded my head and held out my hand for a fist bump, Madison pushed him closer so his fist could meet mine. then we both smiled to each other which caused our ma to start in... "See what I put up with Madison, they are always as thick as molasses, they stick together no matter what..."
Madison looked at my ma, then us before she answered, "but that's good right, brothers that care for one another..."
"Yeah, but not when they side with each other keeping their mom at arms length."
Madison smiled and laughed, " that is called son's rights..." she then excused herself letting Matty stay for a while with strict instructions if he felt tired he would get me to call a nurse.
once we were alone, my ma fired questions at Matty, they came so fast it was like her mouth had turned into a gattling gun...

"ma please, slow down, give Matt a break already..he's still weak.."
She looked at me with cold eye's... "Ma, the detective you told me about is calling over to meet with us around six, like you say lets leave it to the professionals eh?"
she spun her head to look at me, and with an over sickly "Of course sweetheart" she turned back to Matty again...
Something told me, my ma was making plans and it had nothing to do with telling the cops.

Chapter Forty Six

"Matt" I called out to him as he crumpled to the floor. I looked at Samantha, "Please help him" She hit the emergency bell and in seconds a medical team were in my room and all stood around Matt, checking his breathing, vitals, a gurney was brought in and he was taken away, Samantha went too. leaving me alone thinking on his last words to me before he collapsed. "this is a warning" If only I could get out of bed, but I was too weak, my body hadn't recovered enough yet. "God Damn it." my baby brother was now seriously injured cause of me. I had to stop this deranged psycho before she carried out her threat and did kill someone.
Frustration took hold as I needed a phone, when Matt called today I was going to ask him to go get me a new cell.
I pressed my call bell, I waited and eventually a young candy striper came in..." yes sir?"
"Can you get me the payphone?"
"its down the end of the hall sir?"
"No, not that one, the payphone cart."
"she looked at me blank..."
"I used it the other night."
still looking blank she answered, "I'll go check and see what I can do..."
I was not filled with confidence. her whole body language told me she had no idea what I was talking about. the time slipped by and felt like forever; she never returned, so I pressed my call bell again.
this time a nurse came in. " what can I do for you Mr Bongiovi?"
"could you t me the payphone cart please."
she nodded her head, certainly, "I'll be right back."
she left the room but returned minutes later with the payphone. "Thank you, is it only you nurses that knows that you have a payphone cart?"
"no sir, all members of out team know."
"including your candy stripers?"
the nurse looked at me blank, "you know that's twice today I've been looked at like I've lost touch with reality... what's with everyone today."
"I'm sorry Mr Bongiovi, but we don't have any candy stripers on this floor. they only work down stairs in orthopaedics "
this time It was my turn, I looked puzzled, "but I pressed the call bell and a candy Striper came in, I asked for the payphone and she told me it was down the hall, when I told her it was a cart, she looked at me blank and said she would find out and come back to me, she never did which is why I pressed my call bell again."
"I can assure you, we don't have any candy stripers on this floor."
"are you saying I dreamt it?"
"no not at all, maybe she was sent here to get something for one of the Dr's and called in to answer your call bell."
"But you said everyone in your team knows about the payphone cart?."
"they do on this floor, would you like to make a complaint? I can find out who it was?"
I thought for a second, "no, no, I just want to understand..."
"I'll leave you with the phone, press your call bell when your done."
nodding my head, I opened my bedside draw and felt around for the loose change, finding it, I took it from the draw and picking up the receiver I dialled my mom. it rang, and rang until finally she answered.
"Hello."
"Ma it's Jon."
"Jonny, what are you calling for, I only left you and hour ago."
"Ma, can you get me a cell, any will do."
"sure, but can't you ask Matt, his legs and his knowledge on things like that are better than mine."
the last thing I wanted to do was tell her the bad news, at least over the phone. "Nah, he's not arrived yet."
"well he'll be there later won't he?"
"Ma, can you get me one or not?"
"ok, I'll get you one, but why the urgency?, you sound stressed? what's wrong?"
"nothing, I just wanna ring and chat to my lawyer and that detective guy you gave me the card for."
"that's great news Jonny, I'm pleased you have seen sense. the card is in your bedside draw. The detective is Bennett."
"That his first name?"
"Yes, cant remember his last, its on the card though. you want me to call him for you?"
"no ma, its all good, I can do it. you calling back tomorrow?"
"yes, unless you want me to call back tonight?"
"It's up to you ma."
she paused for a minute before she answered "ok I'll come back tonight, your sure you don't mind?"
"ma, stop ok?, you know you can visit, just lay off the being Jon Bon Jovi mom stuff ok? The nurses and Dr's have a job to do, they are taking care of your sons right?"
I realised my mistake as soon as I said it.
"Sons? what do you mean sons?"
I ended the call, pissed at myself for making that mistake. you can be sure, she would be back at the hospital now faster than superman..
well no point in beating myself up; I needed to talk with Detective Bennett, I had to focus, I felt around in the draw, but couldn't feel the card, I pushed my arm further to the back of the draw and felt it, wrapping my fingers around it I pulled the card from the draw. I looked at the name written " Detective Bennet Shawstring"  picking up the phone I dropped in my dime and called the number.
After playing call hold for five minutes, three bucks later I was connected to the detective.
"Bennet Shawstring"
"hi, this is Jon Bon Jovi, I understand my mom has spoken with you regarding a stalker issue."
"yeah, she has, what can I do for you Mr Bongiovi "
"she told me that I could call you and you would call to see me and take a statement and help get the bitch prosecuted, is that right?"
"I can help that happen yes, but your mom said you didn't want any help, you were against the police helping you, can I ask what's changed your mind?"
Sure, my brother is now in the same hospital as me, he has been stabbed."
"He is? when this happen?"
"today" I could hear paper being flicked through, then the detective spoke again.
"look, I have a couple of other things to tend this afternoon but I can be with you for around six this evening, that ok."
Six is fine, I'll see you then."
I hung up from the call, and laid back with my head on the pillow, talking to myself out loud, I said..." this time bitch you are gonna fucking pay, you are messing with the wrong family." just as the nurse came in to see if I had finished with the payphone cart.
"Oooh what have I done? sounds scary..." it was Madison.
I smiled at her, "hey stranger, didn't think you were back until tomorrow?"
"I got a call, they have had an emergency or too and are short, so would I do over time."
"and you said yes..."
laughing  she replied, "I did... your very perceptive..."
laughing I answered, "I am?"
"so you all done with the payphone?"
I nodded, "yeah, thanks... Madison, can you check on my brother?"
"your brother is here?"
"yeah, he was on his way to visit, when the goons that did this to me attacked him, they stabbed him, he was talking to me when he collapsed."
she smiled, "of course I'll find out what I can, I'll be right back." she took the phone cart and left my room.
Seconds later my mom burst through, "you said son's, what the fuck do you mean, son's"

Chapter Forty Five

My ma talked non stop during her visit, and I know she was trying to still be around when Matt returned.
She paused briefly, "Jon you ok, your looking pale?
" I'm just tired, I guess " 
"want me to get a Dr?"
I shook my head, " no its good."
" But baby..."
"Ma, please enough already"
She stopped talking, and looked to the left so she was staring out the window. It created an atmosphere as big as an elephant, and it arrived in the form of my nurse who came in to do my obs, she looked at me, then spoke to my mom.
"Your son needs his rest Mrs Bongiovi... visiting times are between 11am-2pm, and then 6pm to 9pm, unless you have been granted a special pardon by the surgeon or admin team, I really am sorry but you will have to leave. We are now starting our meds round."
My ma dithered, "but he's my son... surely I can stay a little longer..."

"I'm sorry Mrs Bongiovi, no concessions, we are doing meds rounds..."

"But I'm his mother, you can't talk to me like that... I have rights..."

The nurse moved round to where, my mom was now sitting; and spoke direct to her and placed her hand on my ma's elbow and gently but forcibly lifted her from her seat,  "Mrs Bongiovi, you are not my patient, your son is, I do not care who you are, you now have to leave, you are welcome to return later. My ma hesitated as she bent forward and collected her purse, then straightening her body and giving the nurse a stink eye she said " You can make it ok for me to stop Jonny," I remained quiet, "right, I see, you want me to go too, Ok, but I'm not happy about this, I will be talking to one of the senior administrators, I will not be treated like a common visitor, I am Jon Bon Jovi's mom..."  

I had to speak, it was getting embarrassing. "Mom for the love of god, enough already about being my ma, if ya keep this up I will ban you from visiting, just except the hospital rules ok?"

She looked at me a hurt expression on her face. I shook my head and smiled, still digging in her heels she walked back over to where I was laying, while the nurse, now waited patiently at the far side of the room, she leaned over, and kissed my forehead, then walked back to the door, looking back, she gave the nurse another stink eye before talking to me, "I'll see you tomorrow, rest plenty Jonny..." then she was gone.
The nurse was smiling as she walked back over to carry out my obs, she fitted the familiar cuff around my arm, my readings were normal, my temperature was normal as too was my pulse. As she removed the thermometer and replaced it in its holder I asked,  " I know you have sent my ma away, but my brother is calling back, will it be ok if he stays for a while? "
My relief nurse, named Samantha, looked down at me and smiled, "sure, I only said that to your mom as I could see you were tired and wanted her to go."
"really, was it that obvious?"
"too me, as a trained professional, yes, to your mom, no, ... you can rest easy..." she laughed
"whew, that was a close call."

"it was for your mom... again she laughed,
"Right, Jon, now I have a lettuce and tomato sandwich on white, which is what you asked for right?"
I nodded my head, and I could not deny I was hungry.  " right, wait one minute" she left and returned with my food tray and a hot cup of coffee. i lifted the lid on my plate, as my fingers curled around the sandwich, I brought it to my lips and took a bite.
"Mmmm that is what I'm talking about"
"Good?"
"hell yeah."
For the next ten minutes, I stopped talking as I ate my lunch. Wiping my mouth with my paper napkin, I rolled it into a ball and placed it on the plate, still with a mouth full I spoke, "thanks..."
" your welcome, want anything else?"
"no thanks I'm good"
Lifting my tray, she left my coffee, reaching the door she looked back, " if you need anything shout" I raised my hand in acknowledgement.
Sipping my coffee, I could just make out the skyline through the window, the day outside, looked grey and uninviting, I thought about Madison and her boat trip, I would hazard looking at the sky her plans would of changed. I was looking forward to her returning tomorrow.

I was happy living in a day dream when a knock on my door was heard,

"Yo, "

Matt walked in; "am I good?"

I nodded my head,  he came in, but hesitated by the door, "well are you in or out, come take a seat?"

he shuffled across the room and finally sat next to me, he was shaking visibly, "Matt what's with you?, your shaking..."

I studied his face, he was pale, and his eye's were wide as if he had seen a ghost. "I-I-it's nothing."

"Yeah right, look at you?"

"Please I'm fine, a little shaken that's all..."

"Shaken from what?"

He got up and went over to the window and looked out and down below,  "Matt, will you tell me what the fuck is with you?"

he turned to face me, "those goons what they did to you?"

"Yeah, what about them?"

"they have just seen me in the parking lot, they.. they..."

he raised his shirt, a knife wound stared back at me, blood seeping down his side. "they mean business Jon, they gave me a message for you,  when your released, Antonia is waiting to carry on where she left off , she will have you, but if you don't comply..... I'm dead. this... " he pointed to his wound "is a warning"  

I pressed my call button for medical attention, Matt was losing a lot of blood... Samantha came in, as I began to tell her what had happened to my brother Matt collapsed.

 

Chapter forty four

The events of Matt's visit played heavy on my mind, I replayed the conversation over and over and over again; then the doubts and questions to myself, had I jumped the gun, was he really acting in my best interests? did he really betray me... if only the answer were that simple, but fact was they wasn't. I struggled trying to figure it all out.
By the time my mom visited again, I still had no direction. Matt was my baby brother, shit I needed to talk this through with Matt again... I needed to be able to make sense of it all.
the door to my room opened, I hoped it would be matt, but it wasn't it was my ma.
"Hey baby how are you today?"
I lied, "I'm good ma."
"Am I forgiven?" she asked with one foot in the door,
I nodded my head and smiled at her, she saw my smile so stepped into the room and took a seat next to me.
 I waited for her to talk about Matt, in the past when ever he had problems he ran straight to my mom, she had always been his crutch. When she never mentioned it, I was confused so tried the casual approach
"you seen Matt yet?"
"no, he was going to call by yesterday but changed his mind,  he said he would see me in a day or so, he mentioned coming to see you."
"yeah he did, he stayed a while and we sorted security before he left."
my mom sat in the chair next to my bed and eyed me suspiciously, I don't know how she did it but she had a bullshit detector like no other mom I know.
"He called to sort out security, why would he do that?"
"Yeah, after you left the other night Antonia came in just after you left, I rang Matt and asked him to call and sort out security, its no biggie ma."
"mmmm, why do I sense there is more to this than you are telling."
"More to what? there's nothing more to tell..."
"right, the women that has put you in hospital calls in, I assume scares the crap outta ya, you call Matt to call in and fix security, nothing more?"
"Ma, please I've told ya everything ya need to know..."
"Look son, it's none of my business, but I am scared for you, like Richie and Matt I want what's right and that is for this women to be arrested and put in jail, but for some reason my boys shut up and side together. Matt wouldn't tell me anything either."
"Ma, its cause there's nothing to tell ok?"
"well there is, its just you and Matt are siding together as normal... what is it with siblings and parents eh?"
I decided to change the subject. "Ma, can you go see D for me, she must be wondering where the hell I am, she's at her mom's. I promised to go see her."
"She doesn't know?"
"no, cause she doesn't, what you think I'd ring her from the hospital? on the payphone? and just casually announce,  hi babes, don't worry but my stalker struck and I've got a ruptured spleen, deflated lung, and  a possible fractured eye socket, multiple bruising and I've been raped... but I'll see you soon don't worry."
"Ok, ok I get it, no need for sarcasm..."
"well what the fuck you expect eh? "
"I'm sorry, that was stupid of me, of course I'll go see D, do you want me to tell her?"
I nodded my head, yeah, please, but tell her softly ok?"
my ma nodded her head. fidgeting she picked up her purse and produced a card, she handed it to me.
"Please Jon, call this detective,.... and before you sound off, let me say I explained it all, he has connected it with the reports and your lawyer and he wants to help?"
I rolled my eye's, "ma, please I'll do it all in my time ok?"
"Don't roll your eye's at me Jon Francis... I'm your mother..."
"I kissed her hand, "I know, and I've told you before ma, I'm a big boy I'll sort it."
There was a knock at the door, "Yo"
as the door opened Matt's head came round the door. "you ok for me to come in?"
"Sure?"
my mom was watching us both like hawks...
he came over and kissed my mom before standing at the end of my bed. " we good?"
I nodded, "Yeah were good"
he looked relieved and smiled. "well I've some news for ya, but I only called in for a few, I've got another appointment I need to go to, but I can be back around three if that's ok?"
"Sure, fine by me?"
" that's great, Ill call back then......" matt smiled and moved to the door, "Later's Mom..." then he was gone.
immediately he left, my mom started in, "Care to explain that?"
"not really no."
"mark my words Jon, I will find out what's going on and when I do...."
"please, give it up, it's of no concern to you, this is tour and band business ok?, if it was serious we would both tell ya."
"yeah sure you would... Not..."
my ma held her look of distain on her face, but for now she quit and at last spoke about the mundane things in her life, for now that did not include me or Matt.

Chapter forty three

"Wtf matt? "
He took his cell, cancelled the call and looked down at his feet. He shuffled a little in the chair as he returned his phone to his pocket.
"well I'm waiting, you better have a fucking good excuse"
"Why, huh, cause your the great jon bon jovi?"
"no matt, cause I've been to hell and back and cause your my brother. That's why."
" We'll you know what I don't have an excuse,.........  I have a reason."
"go ahead I'm listening" inside I didn't know how I was feeling, a whole bag of emotions swept over me, but the one that remained at the forefront was disbelief.
" when this all started, it became a nightmare for me. I watched as your marriage began to crumble. It pained me cause you and D have been my rock. You had the talent, no denying pops good looks, and I guess to me you were my hero."
He paused before carrying on, "then this witch starts to pick you apart, bit by bit, and I watch my brother, my rock unravel before my eyes. Man it killed me seeing that. Then it became pitiful, you went from a strong guy to a wimp, he'll you even fucked off Rich, now that's impressive, so I knew I had to be the one to take her down. So I chatted to her brother Tony, got her number and started texting her, trying to make her believe I would help her bring you down so she could have you."
I listened with cold blood running through my veins, I wanted to scream at matt for what I was hearing, but I stayed quiet and told him to carry on.
" it was simple, she ain't that bright and she started to trust me. I thought if she shared her ideas I could let you know so you could rebuild your life, start again with D, knowing her moves would put you back on top so she could never be a problem again."
I still remained silent. " anyway thing is, she found out my plan and now she's blackmailing me too. That's why she's ringing, she dont want me, she now wants to use me to get to you."
" and is she?"
"no, no I wouldn't bend Jon, your my brother.... She is pretty pissed with me cause I won't play and roll her dice."
"Oh matt, you have rolled more than her dice, no, you have played Russian roulette, and now the bullets in the chamber your sitting here and your hesitating on pulling the trigger."
"What? No its not like that... I"
"save it, I've heard enough. You know if you wanna hand me over to her you will, nothing I can do to stop you, but if you think I'm gonna give you an easy ride to do that, we'll no more. What I've learned now makes perfect sense, you have been the leak, sharing my locations, hotel, he'll you had her and those goons take me away....."
Matt sat next too me, his head down and tears rolled from his eyes, they fell like rain drops into his hands. I just carried on, " you get it that you are responsible for me being here today? You are responsible for my injuries, the man rape? What I can't figure, is how can my blood relative do that to me?"
He said nothing.  I waited and waited but he said nothing else, he just got up from the chair walked through the door and left.
A wave of nausea came over me, I pressed my bell for a nurse.
The door to my room opened, " Hey everything OK?"
I shook my head, " no, could you get me a bowl, I'm feeling sick."
Immediately she got a bowl as my body convulsed to expell the bile from my gut. Finally finished I laid back after taking a sip of water. The nurse, watched over me and took my obs, from perfect to raised, my blood pressure was not 140/90, my temperature was 38, and my heart rate was 99.
She noted it in my chart, she looked at the tray of uneaten food.
" Mr Bongiovi you really need to try and eat, your stomach is empty, if you want to recover you won't without fuel."
I nodded, " thing is I don't like macaroni cheese, or ice cream....."
" What about your sandwich?"
" Yeah, but I don't like rye, I like white."
" so, if I get you the same sandwich on white, will you eat something?"
"I'll try, I promise"
"right let me go see catering, I will return..."
She took the tray and left, leaving me alone with just my thoughts. I could not believe matt had betrayed me. It hurt, more than the beating I'd taken.... The more I replayed our conversation, the more the facts had been there all along only I had been to blind to see it. The loyalty of being brothers was now broken and unrepairable, from now on matt was not my brother, now he like Antonia was the problem, now I was focused I was set on making them both history.

Chapter forty two

I must of slept for hours cause when I woke it was with another nurse, Perrine; who was serving lunch. " Good afternoon, lunch, you have Macaroni cheese, soup and  a lettuce and tomato sandwich on rye, with ice cream for desert. Would you like, Coffee to go with your lunch?"
"Erm yeah, coffee would be good, thanks"
"sugar milk?"
"milk no sugar"
With the tray laid on my bed table she left to get my coffee. I rubbed my eye's to get the sleep from them, and gently I adjusted my position. Outside my door I heard a fracas, "Jon it's matt, get this person to let me in?"
Mileys head appeared round the door, " you know this guy?"
Matt was stood just behind, " Yeah, its my brother, he's good thanks Miley."

she gave me the thumbs up as she let matt pass, and returned to her station.

"Boy, where you find her?"

"She is hospital security, I spoke to Madison last night and she arranged it for me."

"Man and I was worried about you, jeez a shark wouldn't stand a chance with her..."

Matt moved forward and lent in for a hug, I patted him on the back.

"thanks for coming."

"its ok, look I'm struggling to get anyone to guard you bro, the team we had for the tour has took off, with all this shite to do with your stalker they are getting bigger pay offers from other sources."

"what?"

"I know, I tried Frank, Mike, Pete, Sly,  but none of them want the gig..."

I looked at Matt, but I knew the real reason, "Antonia"

"no she can't have that much impact right?"

"right now Matt, I would not put anything in doubt as far as she is concerned."

"You know she has a twin right?"

"What? she does?"

"well, no not her, but her brother Tony we employed?, he has a twin, his name is Dale, she told me when she dragged me outta the hotel."

Matts eye's were wide, "Fuck bro, we need to let the cops know, this bitch is totally outta control here... what the fuck is she gonna do next..."

"kill is my guess, and that's why I can't go to the cops yet Matt..."

"What?, are you freaking crazy?"

"No, I'm not, she has so many working with her in this fucking warped world of hers, I don't trust anyone right now. What I do trust is my instinct and she told me if I told the cops and squealed, she would make sure D was dead... Matt I cant risk my wife... I just cant.. she can do what she fucking likes to me, but I wont have D hurt."

"Ok, I get she has lots of goons, but not everyone is with her, the cops can stop her Jon... get a grip bro..."

"so explain why our security team have walked then? they have been with us on so many tours, why they leave now?, we have given them excellent pay and benefits, with medical, why are they walking?"

Matt thought for a moment, maybe the offers they have had are better than we offer, given there jobs are static right now with the tour on hold, we aint paying um, they still have families Jon, they still have to provide."

"whoa there, what ya mean we aint paying um?"

"just what I say, we aint paying um, your here in hospital, the tour is halted, no pay... its in there contracts, always has been."

"no, no, no, I'm not having that Matt, get back and tell the guy's the tour maybe halted but they are on full pay..."

"But bro..."

"no arguments Matt, do it."

"I don't think that's a wise..."

"Matt its my band my company, I decide, and I'm telling you, tell the guys they are on full pay."

Matt scowled at me, "drop the pout Matt, you look like a dumb ass"

"well I look like an ass, you get me to run the show then totally over ride me."

I smiled and patted his arm " yep, that's what bosses do."

"well when your company folds, don't fucking blame me."

"Matt, stop already, that aint gonna happen."

We were both mid way through our conversation when Madison walked in, "Hey, sorry I just need to do your blood pressure and obs, you good for a minute?"

I nodded my head, sure, "Madison this is my brother Matt, Matt this is Madison,"

"hey there"

"Hey there yourself Matt."

Madison put the cuff around my arm and listened, "Perfect as always"

then my obs which were fine too, she wrote on the chart at the bottom of my bed.  "Well that's my shift done for today, I'm not back now until Friday, but my team mate Jacqui, will be taking over."

I felt a sadness knowing I would not see her again for two days, but I remained cheerful, "anything good planned for your day's off?"

"I'm going sailing, my pop has a boat and I love to take her out to sea and anchor out and enjoy fishing and relaxing.. so its gonna be great, weather forecast is good so I'm all set."

she smiled at me, "so you all set with security?"

"not quite, my bro is still arranging it."

she moved to the door, "you want me to ask Miley to call in and talk with you?"

"yeah thanks that would be good."

Madison snuck her head round the door and asked Miley to come inside. Immediately Miley walked in.

"Yes Mr Bongiovi what can I do for you sir?"

"Listen Miley, I know you are employed by the hospital, but I was wondering how would you like to work for me?"

"Sir, I don't work for the hospital, I work for an agency the hospital employs, honestly I love my job, but working for you what are the benefits and what would the pay be?"

she was direct in her question, I liked that,  Matt sat silent with a sour look on his face.

"working for me, would give you medical cover, holiday pay, and a salary of 25k...."

Miley stood shocked, "What?," then breaking out into a huge grin, she stepped forward with her hand outstretched, "where do I sign and when do I start?"

I shook her hand, "Today?"

"You got it, just one thing sir, I've been up all night covering and I'm happy to do twelve, fifteen hour or twenty hour shifts, but at some point I need a break, who is gonna be my relief tag?"

"I'm working on that, can you give me a couple of hours?"

"Sure, I'll be right outside."

"Ok, well I'm away Jon see you in a couple of days.."

I wanted to say so much to Madison before she left, but I couldn't with my brother sitting there, so I just replied. "Have a good break, see you Friday..."

As she left my conversation with Matt continued... "will you for the love of god take that fucking sour expression off your face, we need to get cover to relieve Miley..."

"well your the boss, why don't you ring and talk to them, you think your better lets see it?"

"Matt stop acting like a fucking child...."

When Matt took to be pissed he was always the same, and he always behaved like a brat. "Ok, give me your cell?"

he through it onto the bed,  "I picked it up, scrolling through his contacts, I found sly's number, I pressed call and waited for him to answer.

"Yo Matt what's up?"

"Sly, its Jon."

"Oh err, sorry, hi Mr Bongiovi, how you feeling... we all heard...."

"I'm fine thanks Sly, but I hear you and the guy's are thinking of moving on to other projects.?"

"ermmm, well yeah, no bad blood Mr Giovi, but well with no pay, we and our families we gotta eat..."

"sly, stop there ok... you and the guys are on full pay until the tour resumes...."

there was silence at the end of the phone... "Sly?"

"yeah, sorry I was taken aback...."

"Does that make a difference?"

"well sure it does, yell, we didn't wanna leave anyways, we love working with ya...."

"So you will tell the other guy's right..."

"i'll do my best sir..."

"sly, one more thing.."

"yes sir anything?"

"I need someone for security to be a personal safety guard outside my room, I have employed a oung girl called Miley, you want that gig, and extra five thousand bucks in it for ya?"

immediately he replied, "Yes sir.. but a girl?"

"hey, don't knock her till you meet her ok?"

"ok, when do you need me?"

"in around an hour?"

"ok, no problem."

I gave Sly the hospital details and ended the call, as I was handing the phone back to matt his phone lit up and there showing on the screen was the name "Antonia"

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter forty One

I was still out for the count when madison returned, I woke when she tripped on her way out of my room.
"Sorry, I didn't want to wake you, I thought I'd come back later"
I yawned, which caused me to flinch again as the air filled my lungs, " no don't go, sit, come talk to me."
She smiled and moved over to the edge of the bed and sat side saddle style, her hands resting on her lap.
"so, how long you been a nurse?" she smiled as she answered,
"possibly as long as you've been a rock star"
"thirty years?"
"Mmmm getting on for that anyway."
I was struck with how stunning Madison was, she had a natural beauty, wore very little makeup, but was impeccable in her appearance and professionalism. I could not deny, I was very attracted to her. A first for me. I was enjoying getting to know her. I don't know why but I wanted to know if there was a man in her life, somehow I was going to ask the question, just how to make it casual.
"bet your family is proud huh?"
"no the opposite actually, see my pa was a surgeon, and a damn good one, I always looked up to my pa and I guess wen they knew I was going to med school to follow in his footsteps, they were over joyed, however it was short lived.  unfortunately a year into med school, my professor told me I had failed the preliminary exams and I couldn't continue. For days I walked around in a daze, but the truth of it was; the training was so intense, the hours uncomprehendable..... revising and studying relentless; which hey I understand if you are letting someone operate on you. I guess when I collapsed, with exhaustion I was able to then put things into perspective. so I decided to become a nurse instead... "laughing she continued, "were the unsung hero's on the back line..."

"wow, a women of strong virtue and independence eh?"

she looked down and smiled...

"not sure about virtue exactly, just doing what was best for me, and not my family..."

"your to be admired."

she blushed... "I'm ok, and its a good job most of the time..."

now I was going to ask, I had to know...

"Bet your man is in the same field?"

"oh there's no one special in my life right now, I'm in between relationships...no desire to go there for a while either... if I am lucky enough to meet someone, It has to be they can give me commitment one hundred per cent and not lie and have a married partner in the back ground...."

"you've been stung bad by the sounds of it."

"yeah, and I didn't learn once, no I went and made the same mistake twice.... I'm a blonde dumb ass."

"no, your human, and a caring person, that's not being a dumb ass, the guys that treated you so bad are the dumb asses..."

"why Mr Bon Jovi, are you flirting with me..."

I laughed, at being caught out... "maybe..."

" well let me tell you as flattering as that is, you are married and just the kind of guy I'm steering away from...thank you;" laughing she continued, "anyway, you really need to rest and I best get back as I have other patients needing my services... but thank you for listening..."

"Pleasure, perhaps we can do it again sometime?"

"MMM maybe..." 

"As friends of course..."

""of course."

I smiled at her, "So will you be by again later?"

as she reached the door and looked back at me she answered, "You never know.. rest easy." then her smile and charm were gone and I was alone once more. Outside daylight had broke and the gentle breeze flowing in my room was refreshing. I laid my head back on the pillow and drifted off into a deep sleep.

 

Chapter forty

There was a knock on my door, then a head popped round, " Hey there I'm miley," I don't know why but I was shocked, I was expecting a guy, but there large as day was a beautiful young women. My expression must have given it away, " you were expecting me to be a guy right?"  she chuckled to herself, "that's OK, it figures as it's a guys world, but in my defense, I can tell you I'm damn good at what I do and I swear, no one will get into your room unless you want them, ok?"
I smiled as I answered, " ok"
"so can I get you anything? "
I shook my head, " no I'm good thanks"
" Ok, well I'll be right outside if you need me ok, just yell...." She raised her hand as she left the room. At last I felt a calm wash over me for the first time in, well in a real long time,  with a gentle sigh I laid my head back and  closed my eyes to let sleep take hold.

It wasn't long before I was asleep and dreaming, but I was awoken four times when the nightmare I'd gone through physically came back to haunt me. I woke, sweating with a racing pulse and gasping for breath, laying there in the darkness I collected my thoughts and had to remind myself I was in hospital and safe.

Gently I eased myself to a sitting position, but the pains I felt, did  there best to remind me of my injuries. Each time it pinched I paused and took a gentle breath before carrying on.

Some thirty minutes later, I'd achieved my goal and was sitting propped up with pillows behind me.

Now I could see around the room a little better, Madison came in shortly after to take my blood pressure, "mmm you are text book perfect there Jon, 120/80"

"thanks, I try to stay healthy, I run and stuff," my hands fidgeted as for some reason I was nervous, I felt like a school boy with his first crush...

"well that's good, maybe you could do a workshop for me when you have recovered with some of my patients?"

"yeah, I'd be happy to help..."

"Great I'll let you know about it more when your feeling better. that will be something having a celebrity advising them on health..." she laughed.

"I would have thought you would have been better at making an impact as you guys are the real deal right? your the one to pick up the pieces when there health declines due to live style..."

"Jon, everyone says to the Doc want they want us to hear, but truth is old habits die hard."

"I guess, a life time of wrong choices cant be changed over night I guess."

"Yes, but little changes make a big difference."

"well, I'm happy to help anyway I can..."

"Great thank you. now let me take your temperature and pulse, just sit quiet for a moment ok?"

she attached a pulse and oxygen monitor to my finger and took my temperature with my ear.

"that's all good... great your getting better, it looks like you heal fast Jon."

"I hope so, though I'm still in pain, "

she checked the bottle hooked to my arm, "mmmm your tramadol has ended, let me see"

"she checked the chart at the end of the bed, "you had that over four hours ago, I'll arrange for a fresh one to be given. can you tell me on a scale of one to ten, with ten being the most painful where is the pain?"

"honestly its nine..."

"Ok, ill arrange some liquid acetaminophen too"

"Thanks"

"Are you hungry, you are not eating much?"

"no not really, my stomach is too tender, I cant face anything.."

Madison looked at the drip in my vein, "least you are getting fluids...looks like its ready to be changed too."

she pressed the call bell and in minutes another nurse was in my room, "Yes."

"can you get me another saline,acetaminophen, and tramadol drips please nurse"

she nodded and left.

Madison was easy to talk to and while we waited for my drugs, we chatted, she was interested to know how the awful nightmare with Antonia had started, I didn't want to elaborate as it was embarrassing for me, but I gave her the sketch outline.

She was caring and concern showed on her face.

"I can't believe your wife didn't trust you, and set you up for the fall with the child... that's unforgiveable isn't it? how can someone you love be given that much hurt from the person that loves them?"

"I wish I knew, we have been married for a long time, and I thought she was always cool with my job, but I've learnt a lot this year, so far its been an eye opener that's for sure."

The nurse returned with my meds, Madison took them from her and attached them all to my cannula so the meds were administered direct to my veins.

The tramadol kicked in straight away and I began to feel the relief.

Madison looked at my face, "looks like its working already."

I nodded, "Sure is... thanks..."

"well I'll go check on my patients and let you rest."

"do you have too, your great company..."

" I can come back after my rounds if you would like?"

"Yes, please I'd like that..."

touching my arm, "ok see you in about an hour..."

as she left I again closed my eyes and again for the first time in what was like a lifetime I smiled, and felt a warmth inside like never before.

 

 

 

Chapter thirty nine

Immediately Antonia left I pressed my call bell, I needed someone to sit at my door. My hands were shaking, as I lay waiting.

" Mr Bongiovi are you ok?"
" no can you get a senior member of your team please?"
"sir I am trained, what ever you need I can help?"
" thanks but this is not medical, it's personal safety."
" in what way sir? We're all trained, you are in good hands..."
I started feeling irked, " look instead of talking with no comprehension of what I'm asking could you please get me a senior member of the hospital staff?"
" unfortunately, it's late and all the senior registrar's have left for the day, two members are on call for emergency cases being admitted, is your quest an emergency? "
" in one way, but not medical, look make a note for the senior registrar to call see me tomorrow ok?"
" Certainly,  is there anything else I can do for you?"
"no, thanks I'm good."
The nurse left, I needed to get hold of Rich or matt... I rolled over gently and  fumbled in the bedside draw for my cellphone, but couldn't find it. How stupid of me, it would be wherever they had taken me and no doubt still in the pocket of my jeans they cut from my body... "Fuck"

I could not rest, without knowing that there was someone keeping watch outside. I tried to calm myself by taking gentle breaths, which killed my side as my lung was not fully recovered yet, without me knowing I must of pressed the call bell again, and the same young nurse appeared.

"Yes sir,"

"croakily I apologised, "I'm sorry I pressed the call bell by accident." She turned off the call bell.

"ok, well if your alright I'll be heading back to the nurses station."

"erm, how do you make a call here, "

"there's a payphone at the end of the hall"

"But I cant walk right now?"

"mmmm there is the payphone trolley. would you like that brought to you?"

I nodded my head, "Yes please."

"Ok, I'll be right back."

The nurse left, again I searched in the draw and found a few dollars laying there, and some lose change. I know I had nothing on me other than a sheet when I was admitted, so reasoned it would have been left by either Rich or my mom. whatever and whoever I was grateful.

The nurse entered with the payphone trolley, "Here you are, press your call bell when your through and I'll come get it." she smiled as she left.

I picked up the receiver, I dialled Matt first... "yep, hello.."

"Matt its Jon"

"Shit bro, mom told me what's happened, I'm coming over in the morning to see you.. you ok?"

"yeah, well kinda, pretty beat up, listen Matt, can you do something for me/"

"Sure, anything?"

"great, can you arrange for some security to sit at my room door, Antonia called in earlier again... I'm so not safe right now bro..."

"What the fuck?, do the hospital know..."

I winced at the question, "erm not exactly..."

"well they either do or don't, which is it?"

"Don't...."

"well why the hell not, how can they monitor your safety if you don't tell um?"

"Look I'm not arguing Matt, I need help, you gonna help or not?"

"Alright, alright already, I'll help, but you need to tell them what's happened Jon, it's not fair that you don't."

"yeah, first thing.. I promise..."

"no, now Jon, I cant sort things till tomorrow, what if she comes back tonight?"

"Matt, please, its pretty degrading you know..."

"Oh right so you'd rather be dead than a few minutes of blushes, get real Jon..."

I had never heard my baby bro speak so candid before, I was shocked, but also proud... what he said resonated with me, his direct approach worked.

"ok, the minute I'm through talking I'll tell them..."

"Good, well rest easy bro and i'll see ya on the flip side ok?"

"Ok, night "

"Mm night."

we both hung up the call, as I pressed the call bell for the third time. The same pretty nurse arrived.

"all done?"

I nodded, "listen, I have a very delicate issue that I need to discuss, who is best to speak with."

"I'm a good listener, you can tell me..."

 Taking as big a breath as I could, I started, "ok, here goes"

"I guess you like the rest of the world has heard about the issue I have regarding a fan/stalker right?"

the nurse nodded, "Its pretty much on the news twenty four seven..."

"well, I'm here in hospital because she and her goons did this too me, she wants me to have sex with her, and because I refused, it's pretty much pissed her off...anyway, the thing is... she called into see me earlier tonight..." I paused to catch my breath, the nurse placed her hand on mine, a soft look of understanding in her eye's, "its ok, take your time..." "thing is.... I'm scared she will come back, I, don't feel safe..."

"that's not a problem, we have hospital security, I'll get him to safe guard your room tonight. will that help?"

relief washed over me, "Yes, yes that would be great....can you make sure that no one enters without finding out who they are first, with no exceptions..." "I cant see that being a problem, but, if its a Doctor or one of us, Miley knows us, so it will just be your visitors ok?"

I nodded, "yeah that's fine..."

getting up she took the payphone trolley and made to the door way. "I'll make the arrangements now for you."

"thank you... sorry I don't know your name?" "Madison.."

"thank you Madison."

she smiled at me, "Your welcome... I'll be back shortly..."

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter Thirty Eight

My mom was really tentative, but also her domineering self, which drove me crazy, "Jon, I'm going to call the cops, and when they get here I want you to tell them everything. Ok?" I tired reasoning with her,
"No, look just leave it ok?, I'm a big boy I can sort this myself?"
Rich could not resist adding his comments too, "Oh sure you can, look at you?" being out numbered and laid up was not good, I had no where to run too. I tried again,
"Look, I made a bad call of judgement."
"You did what?, are you for freaking real? a bad call of judgement? seriously bro you need to go see a shrink cause something aint sitting right in that brain of yours......" he paced and stood by the window looking out to the city below, then he spun on his heels and started again,.
"Ok, lets forget the fact she is a psychotic fucking bitch who has stalked you for months, near broken your marriage, has more whacko family members than we can count, what about the injury to D and now you, she almost killed you, why because she wanted sex with you?, but you call it a bad judgement call? go figure cause I don't get it. you get beat up to an inch of your life... but that's a bad call of judgement.... so explain, enlighten us? I just gotta hear this?"
Then my mom too,
"Mmm so would I Richard..."

If only I could of got myself outta that bed, I would have took off, just gotten away for some peace and quiet, but I was stuck,  and with both my ma and Rich not letting go, I was getting moe and more pissed. I'd have given him the stink eye, but right now I couldn't even manage that.

Truth was, I was shaken by everything that had happened, a new experience for me, and I did not like it. I have to be in control and since all this crap had started, I had lost all control over my life, and what scared me more, I had no idea how to get it back, I was weak, exhausted and tired from it all.
Rich spoke again, "So you gonna tell us?"
then my mom, again... "Please Jonny, tell us, so we can understand"
a fire erupted in my belly as I croakily snapped...
"What you both want to know that I was beaten, gagged, tied up, stripped and had a pole shoved up my ass in a man rape, you wanna know I've been shackled and whipped, kicked black and blue? well guess fucking what, that's what happened, and to top it off, Tony aint the only one, no, he's a twin and his name is Dale and if I tell the cops D will be dead.... so, now you know, why don't you and my mom do your fucking best and beat me a little more eh,?"
I turned my head away as tears streamed down my face. my mom gently laid her hand on my arm.
I spoke calmer, but I was pissed off with both of them "Please mom, don't just go...."
"Bro, I'm sorry, I had no idea.... but you do see the cops need to know right?"
"Do what you want Rich, just leave me alone.... just go, both of you..."
"Jon... I "
turning my head back I snapped " I said go..."
my mom was adamant she wanted to stay and tried being over sweet, but I was not in the mood, first the Doc, then Rich and my mom, everyone telling me what to do... I just wanted to be alone....
"for the love of god will you both just fucking leave me alone.... GO!! "
Rich moved to the door, "I'm not giving in Jon, I'll make you see sense, and I'll be back tomorrow... sleep well buddy..." he left. My mom stood and had crocodile tears in her eye's, "Stop mom, for the love of god.... just go, ok?"
"I love you baby, your my son, I hate seeing you like this..."
"yeah I get it, now go please... I want to be alone..."
she bent down to kiss my forehead and moved my bangs from my eye's. "Ok sweetheart, I'll see you tomorrow... sleep tight..." reaching the door, she called back... "Love you..." before finally leaving and closing the door.
I breathed a sigh of relief and closed for eyes for no more than a second when my door opened again...
I was about to tell my mom to go again when another voice spoke...
"I've been listening, what a good boy you are Jonny..."
"Anotnia?, how the hell? what do you want?"
"What you agreed to do, she played my voice back she recorded what felt like only minutes ago...
eerily, I heard my voice "I-I want you..."
"So we need to complete that don't we..."
"I cant do anything, I'm not fit enough...you near killed me..." my sentences were rambled and not making any sense at all, but the fear in my chest was real and I was panicking inside, how could she be here at the hospital...
she neared the bed and sat on the edge, her hands caressing my face and neck and she slid her hands further, my body tensed as she traced around the bruises to my side and chest....
"Please leave, go, I've not told anyone... just leave me alone..."
"I will Jonny, all in good time, but I will have my night of sex with you, after all, this has all been pointless otherwise... and let me tell you, I do everything for a reason..." she got up from the bed and made her way to the door, "sweet dreams Jonny... see you soon..."

Chapter thirty seven

For the next few hours I drifted in and out of consciousness, but everytime I woke Richie was still by my side. My obs were checked every four hours, and apart from checking my blood pressure the rest didn't hurt. Softly I coughed, the tube in my nose providing oxygen, was making my mouth dry, Richie immediately picked up a sponge stick and dipped it in water before he gently placed it to my lips and pressed. " here lick this bud" I parted my lips as a small amount of water trickled inside. Gingerly I swallowed. " so will you please tell me what happened, bro you look awful, it was Antonia right?"
I looked at him and blinked my one good eye in response. "dr says your lucky to be alive, they ruptured your spleen, your lung collapsed and they have already operated on your scrotum to reduce the swelling, your eye socket is closed and your other eye is totally blood shot"
With very little voice I joked, "apart from that I look ok eh"
Rich looked at me in horror, " your fucking  joking? What's with you? I tell ya, those fucking bastards are gonna pay."
I raised my hand to try to calm Rich, but he was raging. He left my side and was pacing around the room, his next sentence made my blood run cold, "the cops will be here later, and this time they are going lock the psychotic bitch up." fear flooded through my veins as I tried to speak, " no, I can't, please call off the heat."
"What? Have you lost your ever freaking mind?"
" please, I beg, Rich, trust me..... I can't tell the cops"
"Why? Huh, why? Did you enjoy this? "
Gently I shook my head, "D, they will kill D"
" how the fuck can they kill D?, a fucking neat trick from a jail cell, get a fucking grip Jon......... We're jersey Boys right."
I wanted what Rich wanted, man I wanted her to pay, but until I was recovered and strong enough I had to wait. I needed to be sure my wife would be safe, I had to protect her before I took revenge, well justice.

Rich would not relax, he paced and paced, my voice was just not strong enough for me to shout for him to stop.

My mom walking through the door did though. "Something wrong Richard?" she always spoke to Rich using his full name, he hated it. Grimacing a smile he glared at me as he walked over to my mom, and gave a fake smile and a hug.

"So Mrs B how are you?"

"pissed, can you tell me what's happened to my boy?"

I raised my hand to gesture for her to sit and I could explain but she chose to ignore me. instead she glared at me and spoke to Rich.  

"truthfully I don't know Mrs B, Jonny has not said much, but looking at his bruising across his neck not surprising, but rest assured I'll find the bastards and they will pay."

"revenge is not the answer Richard, justice is... yes we will find whoever did this to my boy and they will pay, in jail..."

finally she walked to my bedside, her face full of concern. she stoked away my bangs and traced her fingers down my face, "oh my poor baby...."

pulling my bruised aching arms up I caught her hand and gently brought it too my lips to kiss her fingers. I was trying to reassure her I was fine.

Then another visitor came in, my Dr. "Excuse me, can I see my patient please.

He pushed past my ma and took the chart from my bed, then came round to my side, "mmm eye is still closed, lifting my top he gently examined my chest, side and stomach, which made me flinch, I heard my Mom cry out when she saw the bruising on my body, the doc then pulled open my pants to look at my scrotum, careful not to expose my genital area in front of Rich and my mom. then he proceeded to feel around my neck, Adams apple and larynx's, again I flinched, satisfied with his exam he sat on the edge of the bed and like everyone else asked me what had happened.

He sat crossed legged his hands rested on top of each other as he waited.

"I tried to tell him, it was all ok, but he was having none of it.

"Jon,  I know you are a celebrity, your scared about leaks to press and stuff, but more importantly you are my patient,  and I can assure you anything you tell me will be in the strictest confidence, however, for me to continue your treatment to the best of my capacity as your Dr I need to know what happened to you. so shall we try again?"

I spoke softly but asked the Dr to get Rich and my mom to wait outside.

He asked them if they wouldn't mind stepping out so we could talk. Neither of them wanted to leave but the Doc herded  them out into the waiting area.

"So, were alone, tell me. What happened to you?"

I explained slowly and with hardly any voice the nightmare I had endured at the hands of Antonia and her hench men. the Doc sat listening his face full of concern, I also told him about the threat to D and why I could not tell the cops yet. After I had finished he spoke.

"Jon I don't agree about you not telling the police everything that happened, they are trained to deal with these kind of things, keeping it to yourself you could be doing more harm, to yourself and your wife. you have suffered serious injuries and I tell you, your lucky to be alive, so I ask you to reconsider your decision. "

I listened to the Dr, but I just did not know what to do, if they did half as much to D as they had to me, I could not live with myself. I know what the Dr and Rich had said was true, but dare I take the chance.

The Doc reached the door and with his hand ready to open it, and let my mom and Rich back in, he said, "I mean it Jon, think about it and the consequences..."

As he left my mom and Rich came back inside the room. immediately Rich started, "so you tell him, but not me, I'm your bro, I can sort this shite out man, so are you gonna tell me or what?"

 

 

Chapter Thirty Six

My eyes were closing even though my hands, feet neck were shackled in cuffs and ties, I ached everywhere and hurt more than I could bare, My capture Antonia cared not, she had photographs taken of me, and positioned herself to be in the pictures. she whipped me over and over when I failed to respond to her in the way she wanted, her rage over flowing, but despite the pain, I could not do what she wanted me to do. I was injured badly, I managed to beg for help twice but she told me to man up, she refused me medical attention. it was only when I started gagging and coughing up blood she took notice.
"Ewww what the fuck is this?"
once I started coughing I could not stop and my stomach wretched with every blast, each time more and more blood came out of my mouth.
She hit me hard in the face, "Stop it, you hear just stop it."
but I couldn't, in between coughs I begged, "Help me please..."
she got off the bed and stood with her hench men, "Make him stop, now..."
The biggest guy came over, he looked at me then walked back, "Boss he's in a real bad way, looks like he's dying to me... he needs a hospital..."
Antonia flipped, "Are you fucking mad?, how can I send him to the hospital?"
"Again I tried calling out, "Please hospital, I wont tell, help me..."
Another coughing fit and even more blood, then I couldn't breathe, I started gasping for air, and writhing on the bed, one of the men came over, he pulled a knife and quick as anything cut the strap from my throat.
"I don't care what you say dial 911 now..."
Antonia stood there shocked, he repeated his instructions... "I said now..."
one of the other guys rang 911, and the other guy came over and released my hands and ankles from my binds, the last guy brought over a sheet to cover my body. Gingerly I tried sitting, but any movement started me coughing, while still gasping for air. I was cold too and started to shiver, I could barely see through the dark as my eye was so swollen it had all but closed. Antonia came over at last, "Jon, when they get here you tell them it was a sex game gone bad or I swear to go Dale will slit your pretty wife's throat. Do you hear me."
I tried to nod, but I could hardly lift my head, pulling my head back she asked again, "You hear me."
between gasps I agreed.

It felt like I was sitting there forever before I finally heard the sirens in the distance, they got louder the nearer they came. Finally there was a knock at the door.
I heard the door open and seconds later I was being spoken too by a paramedic...
"Jesus, Sir, sir can you hear me."
I tried to respond but all energy had left my body, I felt my body being laid back on the bed, every movement caused me to cry out and gasp for air in pain.
"Sounds like he has a collapsed lung.." Oxygen now..." a mask was fitted over my face as finally my body shut down.
Next I knew I was waking in hospital, on a drip, clean and dressed in Pj's hooked up to monitors. I could only see out of one eye, the other closed through the blows I had taken. I turned to the left and could just make out a silhouette sitting next to me. very croakily I asked, "who's there, I was terrified that it was Antonia.
"Hey Jon, nurse, he's awake..."
I recognised the voice, Richie is that you?"
"yeah bro, jese you really scared us, what the fuck happened?"
I dare not say anything as I had no idea who was in the room too. I stayed quiet.
"So you gonna tell, man? you look like you have had a fight with a truck and lost... what the fuck eh?"
I tried to shake me head, but it felt like it was locked in a vice.
a reassuring hand was laid gently on my shoulder, I still flinched in pain..." hey take it easy ok..."
Again it was Richie voice, then I heard a female voice and immediately my body tensed.
Richie must have seen, "Hey relax its just the nurse bro..." no matter how hard I tired though I could not relax. the nurse was moving my clothing and checking dressing, it was then I heard the gasp and shock of Richies voice...
"for the love of god, what the fuck did they do to you?" just as I drifted off to sleep again.

Chapter Thirty Five

Roughly I was rolled over on my stomach against the knarled wooden floor, then a knee was held in my back and a crushing weight bared down on me. I struggled to breathe, then my worse fear came true as I felt penetration to my back passage, it wasn't skin, but a cold object. It was rammed in over and over. The pain seared. Threw my body, tears stung my eye's, then a blow to the face, bang, stars flickered in front of my eye's, as the torture continued. Antonia could be heard walking around in close proximity, her heels clattering against the wood. "What next boss"

"ooh I don't know, suggest something to me boys, but make it painful...."

"Lets cut that pretty boy face...."

"Or lets ram something down his throat and destroy his vocal chords...."

Antonia paced, considering the next conflict of pain for my body, I felt the blood oozing down my leg, and the searing burning pain that was unbearable, my stomach ached, I was bruised but still she wanted more.... I was rolled over again so I was laying on my back, the object left in my butt was pushed further inside causing more excruciating pain... I closed my eyes tight shut and tried to block the pain. Antonia was then down by my side again, "now would you like all this to stop Jon?" weakly I nodded, "Well ok, but are you going to give me what I want?" I was beat, I could take no more, again I nodded my head weakly. she patted my face, good boy, now let me hear you say it... she ripped the tape from my mouth and with it a layer of skin as I felt the blood oozing from my chaffed lips...

"Say it Jon...tell me you want me..."

my voice was a rasp as I muttered "I want you"

Louder, I tried again, "I-I want you."

then I heard my voice played back she had recorded my voice. "right, you two bring in the bed and the silk sheets, and you two take him to the bathroom and clean him up, and take that pole out of his ass" I was dragged to my feet and taken through to the bathroom, dimly lit and grimy I was laid in the tub, cold water was poured over me as rough hands scrubbed my body. the pole was removed just as roughly as it was put in my butt and I screamed with pain.

the two men laughed, "Awww hes got a little pain in the ass..." just as a hard hand whacked my ass again causing me pain.

I spoke, "Please no more, untie me, I can wash myself."

"no dice man, that's our job..."

"Please i'm begging you"

the smell of the biggest guys breath was acrid  as he lent close... "I said that's our job" then he licked my face.

My stomach was wretching, I knew I was in a real bad way, but there was nothing I could do, I felt my eye closing and swollen from the blows, inside I was bleeding and my stomach and man hood ached, my hands were still tightly bound, as were my ankles and I could feel myself begin to drift in and out of consciousness as every time they slapped my face.... "Wake up pretty boy its nearly time to go see your beautiful vixen... "

they hauled me out of the tub and roughly began to dry the water from my body, then I was taken out and thrown on to the bed that Antonia was laid upon. The room was dark apart from the dim red light and the moonlight coming through a window. she was undressed to her scanties, and had re applied her lipstick. "Untie his hands and feet now." she barked the orders as I felt a knife slice between my bounds, immediately my arms fell to my sides and the blood rushed to my hands, with a fire and ferocity that I felt a pulse beating a s the feelings returned.  same with my ankles Antonia moved in and sat astride me, then taking my arms she lifted them and secured them in hand cuffs, next a leather strap was placed across my throat, tight  enough that my head could not move. I felt weak and exhausted, I needed sleep, I needed medical attention, but she was oblivious, as long as she had me, anyway she could she was happy. I laid there just praying to god that his would be over soon.

Chapter Thirty Four

"Antonia?, how you get in here?"
"Don't ask me stupid questions Jon...you should know by now I always get what I want...."
my stomach was in knots, more than usual, "the cops are on the way..."
"Mmmm yes I heard, don't worry my brother will take care of that."
"But Tony has been arrested, along with your mom..."
She paced around me, slowly, as she lent in and mocked me for not knowing all the facts...
"Tony, mmm yes, so he is.... but what you don't know Jon is Tony is a twin, Dale is downstairs right now, they will tell the cops you were called away urgently...."
"rich won't be fooled, he's on the way too."
still she moved around me, "yes, of course Mr Sambora, how he loves the ladies, his delay will be about an hour or so....and by that time it will be too late"
Leaning in she spat, "So its just you and me pretty boy... well and a couple of other people..."
I looked at her as she moved to the bar area, "Oh boys..."
before I knew what was happening four big strapping guys walked into my room, each with masks on their faces. I had no idea what they had planned but I knew it was gonna be bad.
The first guy wearing a green jumper came up to me, and grabbed my face with one hand, squeezing he mocked.. " look at these pearly whites, so pretty aint they?" the second moved round my back and pulled my arms from my sides and tied them tightly behind my back, the third, kicked my legs from under me so I was laying on the floor.  the fourth sat astride me and taped my mouth.

I lay there unable to move as the fourth guy moved down to my feet and bound them tight.
next I knew I was being pushed into a large green sack. I could see nothing, but felt my self being carried out of my room, and heard Antonia's voice, " take him downstairs out the back boys, the transit is waiting, you know where we are going..."

roughly I was bundled out of the hotel and thrown into the back of a van, smashing my elbow as they tossed me in like a bag of mail.
I cried out in pain as I landed heavily.
"oh sounds like you like pain..." the next thing I knew I felt a huge kick to my stomach causing me to draw my knees up to my chest, winded I could hardly breathe, then another blow this time to my back, and another to my chest area, I wasn't sure if it was one person or all four that were reigning blows on me. I closed my eye's and just tried to block the pain.
The pain continued until I heard Anotnia's voice, "Enough save some for later, don't want you boys to peak to early do we, we have a very long night ahead of us..."
the doors to the transit slammed shut, and the engine started and I felt movement as the van moved off.

I could not think and hardly move, the ropes were cutting off my blood supply to my hands and arms as they had gone numb, same with my legs, the only thing I could feel were from the blows I had taken not less than ten minutes ago. I tried to make sense of directions, but although they had taken me out of the back of the hotel I had no idea where we started from, so sensing directions was pointless, but it was all I could try to do.

they drove for what seemed like forever but eventually the engine fell silent, the back doors to the van was opened and I was dragged out and slung over someones shoulder, my head was spinning  and I ached with pain, I heard a door unlock and the footsteps on the wooden flooring, then I was dropped to the floor, I let out a cry as I fell. then Antonia's voice was close in my ear... "Ready for the ride Jon? I do hope so, my offer for a night of sex is going to be like a sweet dream after what these guys have in store for you"
I tried to speak but all that came out was a muffled sound.
"Get him out of the bag..."
roughly two lots of hands untied the bag and I was shook free. the tape covering my eye's was ripped free, causing me to flinch in pain, I blinked a few times to try to gather my senses and baring's.
Antonia was on the floor next to me again, he hands hovered around my crotch, then she brought her fist down and punched me hard right in my groin, pain seared through me causing me to bring my knees to my chest and to throw my head back, with tears stinging my eyes, I tried to fight the pain tearing though my body.
"Aww poor baby, that hurt you?" she traced her long red finger nails down my cheek, and down my neck, circling around my adams apple.
"What shall I do next? mmmmm lets see..."
she started tugging at the hem of my sweater,  she pulled it up so my stomach and chest were exposed, then her nails again circled around my nipples and down my sternum to my belt buckle... she flicked the buckle and belt to leave it open, then she un did my fly teasing me so I had no idea what she would do next..... 
I did not have to wait long as my pants were pulled down, I felt the coldness of a blade as my clothes were being cut away from my body, in minutes I was totally naked and still bound. I had no idea how bad the nightmare would become, but it was something I would never forget if I lived...
I pleaded through my gag for mercy, but she either could not understand or did not care either way she was hell bent on revenge and she was gonna take it any way she could.
"you, you like him?"
I heard the mans voice, "I do"
"then take him, he's all yours..."
Omg, please tell me they were not going to rape me. I tensed my muscles waiting for what was coming next, praying to god for help with my eyes shut tight.