Chapter Sixty One

Sitting on the plane  ready for us to head off to Alaska, I thought on seeing Madison in town the other day and how she had shot me down, and put me in my place, and not softly either. I don't know what it is with me, but strong women are always my type... I smiled to myself as Richie boarded and took his seat next to me.
"What's making you smile then?"
I shared what had gone down in town with Madison. "So your still not forgiven then?"
I shook my head. "Nope, but the flowers were nice..."
"Fuck, you were the sick friend?, gotta hand it to her, she's got you good.."
again I shook my head smiling. Tico and Dave with hugh and bobby boarded last, door shut the captain spoke and we taxied to the runway.
"so you ready for tonight Jon?"
"yeah, more than ready, I've been itching to get back to it.. I'm guessing you guy's are ready too right? ..."
A loud resounding chorus of "Hell yeah" met my ears...  I held up my hands in protest laughing at their enthusiasm.

Take off was smooth and as we ascended the captain, gave us our flight time, seven hours twenty five minutes, and told us to enjoy the flight, they were playing a movie which the rest of the guys seemed happy to watch, after saying my prayers for a safe flight, which was something I always did, I started a conversation with Richie.

"What can I do with Madison?, she has me on the ropes real bad, and as much as I hate it, I love it too. its like having a permanent itch ya know, and you cant rid yourself of it.."
Rich looked at me as if I had two heads, "whoa there, your asking me?, where's the real Jon Bon Jovi?, please come out and stand up?"
"yeah I'm asking you, so knock it off"
"colour me surprised is alls I'm saying", you never ask me or anyone for advice, so, what's with you Jon?"
"jeez, does something need to be wrong with me?, I'm asking for help ok?, I've never been in a situation like this before, I have always been married remember, this dating shabang is all new to me now, and at my age, I've kinda lost direction of how to do it right.."
Rich listened, then laughed... " really the great Jon Bon Jovi does not know how to woo a women..."
he looked up to the ceiling and rolled his eye's as he spoke, "Oh please"

"Ok, Sambora, I'm so pleased I can amuse you, but I'm trying to be serious here?, you gonna help me or not?" I lightened my mood and little and decided I was gonna rib Rich at the same time as getting his take on my next move...
"You know, I would have thought, you'd be only to happy to share the fucking Sambora love knowledge?" he cocked his head to the side with raised eyebrows and a smile on his face, as I continued "or is it that you have forgotten what to do cause yours has a crust on it three inches thick?"
"ewwww man that's grosse,  but for the record.." he spoke louder, Teek and the guys looked round and smiled.. " no I aint forgot, man, I get more action than some teens" he puffed his chest out all proud like, and I get plenty of praise from my women... thank you..."
deflating his chest he sat back, still looking proud of himself...
"Rich?"
"Yeah, you are an arrogant prick sometimes ya know.."
"he laughed and smiled, "dang right there my man, and proud of it.."
For the rest of the flight, I read the papers and then head phones on I laid back and head and slept.

I was awoken by Rich who less than gently nudged me in the side to tell me to prepare for landing,
"You bud, time to raise your chair and stow your table were about to land.."
I looked to the left and saw the snow falling through the window, blessing myself again for the second time on the flight I prayed for a safe landing. A few years earlier we had an incident and all but slid off the runway after the brakes had locked and we had hit ice on landing, it was a real close call. luckily we were ok, and after the service the Jovi Jet was all fine again, now I always felt it was right to pray to the divine lord to help us stay safe in our travels. My Ma had raised all us as Catholic's and although I didn't attend church anymore, I still held onto my faith.

As we taxied to the gate, landed safely I thanked the lord again in silent prayer, before we all collected our bags and disembarked into the airport. It was swift heading through security and passport control and we were soon heading away to the hotel for the night. 
In the car Rich asked, " you deep in thought, not worried about old ghosts are ya?"
"a little, it kinda screws with yer head ya know, and even though you know it should be alright now, there's always that doubt..."
Rich shook his head, "I get ya, but its gonna be fine, just use your own advice for once ok?"
puzzled I asked him, "what advice..."
"Believe in the power of we..."  I laughed, "yeah right..."
Check in at the hotel was a quiet affair too, no waiting fans which was unusual, but it was nice too, and once inside my room I was able to sit and work out the set lists for the two nights shows we were giving. I had decided on two different sets, so if the fans came to more than one show both nights would be different. I was just working through the second nights set list when there was a knock at the door.  I froze for a second before I called out, heart beating at a million times a second.. "yo"
there was no reply, anxiously I edged nearer to the door, again I called out.. " yo"
then a familiar voice that for once did not bring fear to my heart but the opposite, opening the door there dressed in tight jeans, a white sweater and leather jacket was Madison. " so you gonna ask me inside then or what?" she was stood leaning with her arms folder and legs one over the other, looking as gorgeous as can be, in seconds she had my reply as I grabbed her tightly and brought her inside.

Chapter sixty

Next morning showered and dressed I rang the broker to arrange a viewing of the apartment I'd found online.
Jake  sewell was a top broker and realty agent, I'd attended more of his open houses than I could remember, so the call was a real easy one.
"Jake, Jon,  Jon bon jovi, listen I've seen a property your marketing, I need to book a viewing, you free sometime later today say 2.30?"
I gave him the details and waited for him to confirm the meeting.... in seconds it was all agreed, 2.30 up town manhattan, he  even offered a late lunch too, which meant he was expecting an offer. I played cool and told him we'd see how it goes on the viewing first. But to be honest In my heart I knew he'd get the sale cause if it was as good as the pictures it was gonna be a done deal. Finishing my coffee I made my way to town and collected my dry cleaning, being on tour meant my regular house keeper had vacation time owing, and the replacement cover wasn't due till after the weekend. Walking in the shop the staff were always polite and more than accommodating and have never accepted payment for my laundered clothes, preferring to boost their business advertising I used their services. It was a win win situation.

Clothes sitting in the car, I called in to the coffee shop and took a break, next stop was to call at the realty agent to put the house on the market, but I'd gotta run it past D first.

Sitting in a booth, making sure I was not over heard I rang D.
"Hey jon, what's up?"
"Nothing, you ok?"
"Yeah I'm good thanks," there was a pause before Dot asked me straight.
"What's with the call? It's not just a friendly call is it? What you want?"
"Direct as always,"
"Am I wrong?"
This time I paused before replying.....
" no your not wrong, thing is I've been thinking, how would it be with you if I sold the house?"
"The main house?"
"Yeah, the main house, "
"Why?"
"Just cause that's what I'm thinking, it's too big for me, you've got the apartment and the Hamptons so I thought let's sell it, what ya say"
"Its a bit sudden, I need time to digest it all.... "
I sighed, " what you want me to decide on our kids home in a second?"
"Well yeah, what's there to really think about?"
"I'll tell you what, how about that's our marital home, it's our kids home too, it's where they were brought up, so no I won't give you my decision until I've thought on it...... and jon, don't go marketing it without my say so cause I'm on the deeds..."
"Fine, twenty four hours, I need to know before I go out on tour" D changed the subject, " how's the head" not wanting her to know I lied, "good thanks, so twenty four hours ok? I've gotta go there's someone waiting for me." I ended the call, pissed she would not agree. I was adamant I was still going into the agent no matter, getting a price was good? Right?. Satisfying my own question I finished my coffee and headed out of the coffee shop and set off in the direction of the realty agent.

In my own world my concentration was interrupted by someone calling my name.
"Jon, jon"
Looking back over my shoulder, 
And crossing the highway was Madison.
Reaching me, breathless she smiled, " where you going?" I pointed in the direction of the agent.
"Oh, what ya selling?"
"The house, time for a change and to cut ties on that place, where you going?"
This time Maddy pointed, the florist, my friend is sick so I thought I'd get him some flowers" I let out a chuckle, "flowers for a guy?"
"Yeah why not?" She stood with her hands on her hips and her lips pursed waiting to shoot me down..."
I held my hands up in defeat, "ok, not judging just saying..... " I shuffled from one foot to the other, then asked.... " any decisions yet?"
"Are you for real?, less than twenty four hours ago you asked me to forgive you? And in reply no I've not decided yet. Rest assured you'll know when I do..."
I smiled weakly, "ok, I was just hoping when you called out to me just now it would be good news?"
" it is, I called out to you didn't I? " then she set off to the florist leaving me standing watching after her.

Chapter Fifty Nine

Just as I thought I was forgiven, Madison pulled away from me. "So that's it is it?, a lame excuse that you take after your mom and pop, nothing to do with you right? so I guess I've gotta go chastise your parents huh?"
"What, no, that's not what I meant, look I know I suck at this, and my apology sounds lame, but from the bottom of my heart I am genuinely sorry..." I paused briefly then carried on, " Please you gotta believe me Maddy, " I moved closer, but for the third time now she moved away from me.
"Look, its not that I don't accept your apology, I will, but I need time Jon. You have to realise how bad you have hurt me."
"Baby, look I know I've hurt you, I know I should have just ran after you when those words fell out of my mouth, but I was a total jack ass... and..."
Maddy interrupted, "no the words never fell from your lips Jon, they were thought out before you said them, and what's bad and what's hurts me so much is you meant them cause you said them with such venom, they struck my heart."  she sat on the seat to the side of the table. I moved and sat opposite. I took her hand. "
"I've said I'm sorry, tell me please what can I do to make it right? I'll do anything?"
looking up as her tears fell into her hands, she wiped away the loose tears as she asked..." Really?"
"Really anything,  just tell me..."
"Ill think about it and get back to you..."
" Cant you tell me now?" I was anxious that we sorted things and we could get back to being happy like before.
"no, I cant tell you now... my head is hurting and I need time to think things through..... I need you to leave now please..."
I wanted to protest, but could see by Maddy's face I had achieved as much as I was going to tonight, I gave in, releasing her hand I stood and walked to the door. Looking back I asked, "If I call tomorrow, will you answer?"
she shook her head and nodded and tried to give me a smile. "right, until tomorrow then..."
again she shook her head as I open the door and stepped outside onto the deck.  I thought about opening the door and calling back to tell her I loved her, but the lights went out and I thought better of it, as I stepped out on to the boat board walk and made my way back to Rich who I'd left sitting in the car.

As soon as I climbed inside he asked, " well?"
"I'm a total fuck head rich..."
"Yeah tell us something we don't know... I guess it went bad then huh?"
I shook my head, "it wasn't great..."
"so what happened then?"
"honest to god I really aint sure..."
Rich looked at me and raised an eyebrow, as he lent forward with his arms on the steering column.
"What?, how can you not know? that makes no sense... are you good or not?"
I thought for a second before answering, "right now I'd say not..."
"and your next move will be what then?"
"she's asked for time, so that's what I've gotta give her I guess..."
"and the tour? you cancelling again?"
"no, the tour is going ahead as planned... I'm just gonna have to focus on other things for now and do as I'm asked and leave her alone..."
Rich started the engine, "if you say so, but don't ball out me and the guys cause she aint hanging on your every word, right, were a team out on stage, and we don't need the crap Jon."
"what crap you talking about?"
"The hissy crap you dish when your pissed."
"Oh right and how often does that happen?"
"no, don't go there bro, you wont like the answer... just promise you will keep it in check and think before you open your mouth, that's all's I'm asking.. the rest of the shit we can deal with.. ok? "
right now I was too tired and drained to argue, so I just shook my head and agreed.
Rich shook his head...
" what?"
"Nothing,"
"no you were thinking something right?, out with it?"
"I was ready for the fight after what I just said... you sure you aint no imposter? cause the Jon Bon Jovi I know would be dishing it out after what I just said..."
I gave a lame smile as I replied, "Yeah I'm me, I'm just so tired of it all... drained and tired...so,  you taking me home, or we sitting here all night?"  He agreed and moved the car, the journey back was quiet, the radio was playing and we both seemed happy to just listen the chatter of the DJ and him spinning the tracks.
Pulling into the drive Rich came to a stop outside my front door. 
"you gonna be ok, or you want me to come in and we can talk a while..."
"Thanks, no its ok, I'm good,  sides I'll see you in two days right?, we can talk on the flight if I need too,  but I'm sure I'm good?"
he smiled at me, "ok, but you know where I am if you need me right?" I shook my head  as I got out and saluted him and watched as he drove back down the drive. 

With the door locked it struck me how cold and empty the house was, walking through to the kitchen, with the echo's of my own foot steps ringing in my ears, a thought crossed my mind to sell the house and go live in an apartment in New York.  By the time my coffee was in my cup, my mind was made up and I headed to the den.

 I fired up the computer and started looking at brokers and realty in New York. Scanning through pages I found what looked to be the perfect place, six thousand eight hundred feet, three baths, a sauna, gym, music room, theatre room, outside decking area, lounge, kitchen, and 6 bedrooms. the price tag was perfect too. at $2,000,000 over looking the Hudson river it was a steal.

Registering the number on the ad, I stored it to my phone ready to call first thing, and arrange to view before I left on tour.

Until Madison was back with me, I wanted to be out of this house and away from everything that was a reminder and a heartache for everything that had been fucked up in my life of late. Now it was time for a fresh start, one I prayed Madison would be part of.  

Chapter Fifty Eight

Rich agreed to help me go find Maddy,  he was finishing up with his project and coming over. While I waited I rang maddys phone again....
Still the answer phone.
God damn it all to hell when would I learn to keep my mouth shut. I paced in the sitting room until my legs ached, as I sat like an empty sack into the arm chair,  maddys pop's business card was staring right at me. Picking it up I played with it in my fingers as I toyed with calling him to see if she was there. My fear was; if she had gone to her pops would she have told him? either way and no matter if he blasted me out I had to know. I dialled the number, holding the cell to my ear the call connected and rang out. " hello" success my call was answered, I decided to keep the call light, "hey doc it's jon is Madison with you?"
There was a pause before he replied. " hi jon, erm, no she's not, she did call a couple of hours ago to say you were going on a short break. And that she'd see me in a few days, is everything OK? "
How could I tell him no, I remained quiet for a second which made her pop ask, " Jon you still there?"
" Yeah I'm still here," I told the truth, but tamed it down a little. " Yeah we just had a little spat and she took off, I was hoping she'd come to yours."

there was a pause before he spoke, "What kind of spat?"

I tried playing it down, "nothing major just a spat," I even laughed to try to ease the now growing tension and concern in her dad's voice. "So what was it about?"

"oh something and nothing... so have you any idea where she'd go?"

he ignored my question, "if its something and nothing, and just a spat as you keep telling me, why has my daughter took off and you are anxiously trying to find her?"

I was feeling edgy, and wished I'd not rang his number, I was getting nowhere and now her dad was onto me... how the hell could I let him know how bad I had hurt his daughter.... I couldn't, lying did not sit well with me, so I gave a very tamed down run through of the event.

"Sir, I got checked out at the hospital, as you advised, and it was as we came out Maddy asked me if I was gonna rest as instructed. Because I told her I was going back to work in four days, things got real heated and things were said in that moment, which have obviously hurt her and she took off. I admit it was wrong and that ' why I'm looking for her."

Any idea's that what I'd said had cut any dice with him was as far from the truth as you could get.

I was met with a disconcerted "Mmmm I see"  at that moment I felt like a school boy before the head teacher facing detention for acting out in class.

There was a silence and I took advantage and spoke, "well thank you sir, I'm sure Ill find her and we can sort it all out, forgive me for the call concerning you." I cut the call quick before he had any chance to reply. I felt even more guilty now. I sat looking at the phone in my hands, when the door chime went.

I went and answered the door and let Rich in. "Right so what's gone down this time bro?"

I looked at him, "Hey don't judge me till you've heard me out ok?"

"Sure, but for you to call me, and I quote, Madison's missing, Rich, I've been a real jerk and upset her, what the fuck am I suppose to think eh? the one thing I know about you Jon, your temper is out there when you blow, so yeah I'm pre judging you, cause for someone to leave it must have been bad...am I right?"

 I had my arms folded across my chest, as I looked at him, I shook my head... "it's more than a blow up this time, its a fucking nuclear explosion... and  I don't know why I did it..."

"So what did you say?"

I ran through the story, and then told him the blow out I'd had and how she got upset and took off, then I get home to find she has taken her clothes too. "Rich, I really love her, but what am I to do?"

"right I know you've rang her, but have you left a heart felt apology on the phone for her, after that blow out bud, you have some serious fucking grovelling to do... and maybe if your lucky she will forgive you and come back."

"Don't wanna leave some sloppy ass message on her cell Rich, I wanna find her and apologise in person, holding her in my arms..."

Rich stood listening, "Yeah great sentiment pal, but just one thing,"

" yeah?"

"You don't know where the fuck she is, so that aint gonna work."

"well der, thanks for pointing out the obvious, but you know what I'm saying right?"

he shook his head. "where would she go? she must have told you about places she goes to unwind after a shite day right?"

"No, she just goes..." then it hit me, Rich, I think I know where she is..."

"Where,"

"get your keys your driving I'll tell you on the way?"

I ran to the door, and stopped as I felt dizzy, walking out the door to the car, I got in. Rich got in beside me, "care to share, or have I gotta mind read where I'm going?"

"ha ha funny, not... just drive I'll direct you."

He started the engine and out on the highway I directed him to the marina. As we pulled up, I asked him to wait as I started down the dock to the harboured boats sitting by the quay.

I counted out to the tenth boat and my spirits lifted to see the lights on inside.  I stepped over and boarded the boat and knocked on the door. I could hear someone inside, and then the door opened there was maddy.

Her eye's were puffy  and red from crying, another guilt bolt flew through me, then she spoke, "What the hell do you want?"

"you, can I come inside, we need to talk..."

she stood looking at me, but then stood aside to let me pass.  as I walked inside I mumbled " I'm sorry."

coldly she answered, "fine, that's great, you've apologised that it?"  

I moved towards her to try and hold her. but she dipped my arms and moved further inside the boat, "what, you think a simple sorry will cut it?, my only crime was caring for you Jon, after all you've been though I'm the only one that has stood by you, and you repay me with, "I don't need a nurse maid" your some piece of work and a total fuck ass... and for the record its gonna take a whole lot more than fucking sorry"

I tried again and moved in closer, this time as the tears fell she let me embrace her and hold her. "I know I'm a total jackass, and I'm really sorry, more than you will ever know, and if you'll let me, Ill take the rest of my life proving how much I love you and making it up to you? if you let me..." 

teary eye's looked up at me as I held her close, sniffing she asked, "are you saying what I think your saying?"

"well I don't know, what do you think I'm saying?"

"you know?"

"what?"

"the rest of your life bit?"

"yeah, what of it? "

her green eye's fixed on me, " but you told me you didn't need me, I was hurt, hurt real bad... you know you don't say thing like that unless you want to end it with someone, so, thinking that what you meant, I went home and  packed and took my stuff and came here. why did you day those things to me?"

"cause I'm a jackass, we have already covered that one aint we?, I say lots of things in the heat of the moment, it's my moms fault, and my pop's, I've inherited the Italian temper.... no excuse for what I've done, but if I promise, when my temper rises like that again you can punch me in the mouth, will you give me a second chance?"

Chapter Eight Seven

At the hospital, it was swift and it was confirmed no real damage just severe concussion and I was given orders to rest for a few days. Thing was all I had done since my stay in hospital was rest, I was heading back on on tour in a few days and I had lots to organise. Rest was the last thing on my mind.

As we left the hospital, Madison was holding on to my arm to steady me and studying my face. I felt like I was an old man, and was about to ask her to let go as she  looked at me and started in.
"your not going to rest are you?"
I tried bluffing...  but it came out as ancy "What ya mean?, were just outta the hospital and your starting in?, where's this come from?"
 She stopped shaking her head, "Damn I'm right aint I?, I've only been with you a short time but already I know when you get ancy your avoiding the question..."
I stopped too just ahead, my arm still connected with her arm. I  turned back to look at her as I answered, "Madison, you have to understand, its my job... its what I do.... I have staff relying on me...."
She interrupted, "yeah and you said they were being paid anyway so what's the biggie? "
"yeah they are, but I'm not Midas, I'm paying them out of my pocket not the profit from the tour... I've been off for over two months... I need... no have to get back to what I do..."
still she argued...
"even if it's against Dr's advice?"
I was feeling pissed at her,  partly because her common sense was to close for home, and making sense, and because she was coming across as clingy and I hated that.... I snapped,
"Madison, enough, ok?, I'm going back to work in four days. Period, its not open for discussion." I pulled my arm free of her grip and walked off at a fast pace looking for the car, I walked faster than I realised , my breathing increased enough to leave me feeling a little light headed, and even more frustrated as it dawned on me, we had no transport cause I was brought in by ambulance.
As Madison caught up to me, she was just in time to here me cuss. "Fuck"
"you want me to go?, I was only thinking of you, and  what's with the attitude huh? bit unfair don't ya think?"
I looked at her face, which was full of concern, my jaw clenched tight, I tried to answer her with out sounding cold and fact like, but I was in boss mode and it came out wrong.
"Yeah I get that," I paused before I carried on and the one thing I wanted to avoid saying I went and said anyway...  " but I don't need a fucking nurse maid,Maddy,   I'm a grown man, fully capable of making my own decisions, and for fifty two years, I think I've done pretty fucking well... so far, I've had slips, like everyone, but the day I roll over to a bump on the head is the day I give it all up and stop living. " my venom on a roll i cpntinued, "I'm telling you straight, so you know where I'm coming from, and let me just finish... I don't take orders from no one... you got that, no one...period"
tears sprung to her eye's as she spoke " I'm sorry I care jon, shame on me for loving you, maybe, I should leave you alone? " I said nothing and watched as she ran off in the direction of the elevators. I wanted to go after her, but my male arrogant pride would not let me, and still clenching my jaw I stood by the wall over looking the city, with no plans on what I was gonna do next.
I stood looking at the traffic below, people going about their business, living their own lives.... then I thought about the spat I'd had with Madison, as my temper cooled, a pang of guilt flooded through me. what had I done.
Head still pounding an urgency flooded through my veins as i ran back to the   elevators and caught it down to the lower level, out on the sidewalk, I looked left and right to see if Madison was anywhere in sight, I was praying she was gonna be waiting for me. I was disappointed. She was gone. I walked out round the corner and looked again, but she had disappeared . I re traced my steps just in case, but I had to face facts, I'd hurt her and she'd done as she said and left me alone.
Back out on the main sidewalk I hailed a cab to take me home, I was hoping that's where Madison would be. I tired my cell, to reach her, but each time I called her number it clicked to answer phone. On the tenth attempt I was compelled and left her a message, "Maddy, I'm sorry, please call me..." as I ended the call I  sat holding the phone, praying she call, but the phone was silent for the remaining journey back home.

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As the cab pulled to a stop on my drive, I paid the fare, I got out  and headed inside, opening the door the first thing I did was call out for Madison.

The house was empty and felt cold as i moved from room to room calling out her name.
I looked at my phone again,checking for a missed call, but there was none. Next i tried the grounds hoping to find her somewhere, but I drew a blank. I stood by the back door when a
a thought crossed my mind and I ran back inside and straight up to the bedroom,  I opened the closet, and felt a huge pang of emptiness and an icy grip filled my heart,  as her few clothes that were hung there were now gone.

Sitting back on bed, I just hung my head, remorseful of what I'd done.

The best thing to come into my life in I don't know how long and I'd destroyed it with my famous Bongiovi outburst... for the second time that day I cussed to myself again for being a real jack ass. I had to find her, I had to make it right, and to do that I needed help. Holding my cell to my ear I waited as the call was answered at the other end.... "yo, what's up Bro? "
" hey, rich, listen I need you to do something for me...."

Chapter Eighty Six

As I regained consciousness,  my head was hurting like a bitch, I pulled my hand to where the pain was, and was amazed too feel my hair wet. Realisation flooded through my veins I knew it was blood.

Withdrawing my hand from my injury and trying to focus my vision I saw blood on my finger tips and confirmation I was right.

"What the fuck just happened?"

Madison  was knelt beside me, "D, hit you over the head with the fire iron..."  she held a concerned look on her face,

 " you ok? "

"I think so, head hurts like a bitch..."

Madison lent over and examined my cut, "Oooh not good, a trip to A&E is my guess? looks like you need stitches"

I was not going back to hospital, fact, even though my vision was blurred and my head felt like it had a digger and driller working away, in my skull, I tired to sound casual as I spoke. 

"I'll be ok, I just need something to stem the bleeding..."

"Jon, please you need stitches..."

"Look I'm ok,  sides, your a nurse, can't you just fix me up?"

she laughed at me, "you're  a real stubborn assole sometimes, you know that?"

I gave her my sexiest grin, as best I could, but fact was, I was not going to go sit in A & E for hours, with everyone prying to know what happened, my private life was already over exposed and I sure the hell wasn't gonna let anymore of it become public knowledge.

Madison had left me alone going to fetch something to ease the pain, and stem the bleeding.

She returned minutes later. "Ok, my pop is on the way, he is gonna fix you up, in the mean time take these and  use this?"

she handed me two Tylenol and a towel that had been run in cold water and wrung out, I took the pills and towel and gently I placed it on my head, I winced as I pressed gently.  Still sitting on the floor, I wanted to move somewhere more comfortable.

"Can you help me?"

"Sure, what you need me to do?"

"help me up ?"

slowly Maddi helped me to my feet and to the arm chair I had pointed too. I sat with my arm resting raised keeping the towel to my head and the injury.

"Where's D go?"

" after she hit you she dropped the iron and ran out of the door,  she could be in Chicago for all I know, she was quicker than a V8. Man she is some piece that one." 

 I was puzzled,  and let my thoughts outta my mouth "I don't get it..."

"What don't you get?, far as I can see, you've had a lucky escape from her, no both or them."

I looked at Maddi, "but that's just it, the person I've been talking too of late, really aint my wife, that person is not the Dorothea Hurley I married.... I don't know what or how, but something aint right?"

"she had a break down you think?"

"Maybe, I tell ya, some of the stuff is definitely D, but whacking me?, I swear that's not right, she just would not have done that?... I don't know..."

Maddi lifted the towel and inspected the cut... "has it stopped?"

she lent back a little, "nope, still bleeding..." she checked her watch just as there came a knock on the door. she rose from her knees and went and answered.

When she re appeared she was with a man. her pop was my guess.

 "Pop this is Jon,"

A man in his late years, greying hair and slightly balding on top walked over to where I was resting and held out his hand toward me.

"Mr Bongiovi, I'm Howard, Madison's father"

I shook his hand which was warm. "now let me take a look here and see what's been going on?"  he placed his bag on the carpet next to my foot, and removed the towel and inspected the damage.

"I'm sorry, I need to press to check for fractures, it will hurt... " he wasn't joking, I all but past out and saw stars.

He studied me the whole time, "your a little white are you ok?" I shook my head, "Yeah, I'm ok?"

"Well the good news is I cant feel anything moving or indented, but with the skull you never can tell, really you should go to the A&E and have an x-ray to be on the safe side?"

"No, look, I'm fine..."

"Ok" he raised his eyebrows In disapproval, but continued to check me over, "Follow the light with your eye's please?"

I did as instructed, "Blow out your cheeks please?" Again I did as I was asked. "Raise your arms, touch your nose, then my finger..." the tests were tires some but I went along with them.

"Well, I don't think there is any serious damage, but, if you start to feel dizzy, drowsy, sick or cant stay away, straight to hospital you go, ok?"

I shook my head. "Right, lets get you stitched up then, I'll give you a local..." he drew the syringe and filled it with anaesthetic, then punctured my skin in a few places around the cut and started to fix me up.

I was grateful the injection worked and I was numb, taking relief from the banging and pain I had been feeling. When he was done he stood back, removed his gloves and announced I had ten stitches, and that I would need to go see him on fourteen days to get his nurse to remove them.   I shook his hand and agreed to meet him again in fourteen days, and again pay heed to his warming about head injuries, he gave me a leaflet explaining just in case I forgot. As Madison showed him to the door, I smiled to myself, when she returned, she saw and asked me, "What's so amusing?"

"Nothing, nothing at all" , ... I tired to change the subject... "your Pop, he's a nice man..."

"He is, glad you like him... he was serious you know?"

"About what?"

"Going to get checked out and having an x-ray?"

"I'm fine, honestly, look I promised him if anything gets worse I'll go ok?"

"mmmm but your stubborn, I've already told you that... no what Jon, humour me, I'll watch over you, but if I think you need to go, you let me take you?"

"No dice, your gonna take me now...."

"Too fucking right I am, Jon, really, my pop said if you have a fractured skull anything can happen and you only have a short time to do things when the brain swells... please listen too me... he's given me the name of a private Dr we can see and skip A&E, whadda ya say?"

reluctantly I gave in, "Ok, alright already, if it keeps ya happy I'll go..."

I stood ready to go to the hospital, but as I did the room spun and I fell back on the chair, "Whoa, guess I stood a little to quick eh?"

"Told ya, I'm calling an ambulance." I closed my eye's to stop the spinning and just went with the flow.

 

 

Chapter Eighty Five

Antonia started to regain consciousness while the cops did there job and she was swiftly taken away.
I wanted to believe it was now near over, but the elephant in the room and the deafening silence told me otherwise.
I looked at Dot who was stood staring first at Madison then at me.
"Don't I get a thank you? Well done, or something? I've just saved both your asses"
Lamely I thanked her, but I could not say in all honesty her act of kindness didn't have a condition attached to it. So I asked,
" yeah, strange that, great speech by the way before you left, and thanks but what do you want out of it? You never do anything without some kinda angle for you? So what gives?"
She shrugged her shoulders and stepped further into the room, " I guess what I've always wanted Jon, my home, my husband, my kids.... us back together as a family"
I could not believe what I was hearing,
"You what?, you really suck D, you know that? You made your intentions real clear the night I called to see you and told you bout Antonia, remember, early hours? You made me feel like shit on top of that you laid on me some letter and a kid."
"Yeah, but I was hurting."
"Yeah right, and I wasn't? like I was having a god damn fuck off party?"
"I never said that"
I spat back... " no but you fucking well implied it."
Instead of fighting me, she changed her attack to calm and gentle. Something I'd seen rarely during our marriage, a time when she knew she was losing so pulled out the big guns. I didn't start in straight away I needed to see where this was heading. 

She moved in close to me, and drawing her finger along my shoulder she started, "But baby, What was I spose to think huh?, you come to me early hours of the morning with a tale about some stalker, I received the letter only a short time since, the odds were completely stacked against you?"

I moved away from D, and sided up next to Madison, her eye's were less glazed and she seemed more in control than before. She just stood next to me and said nothing the whole time D was spouting...

I shook my head with a wry smile covering my lips.

"you know, it was bad enough having to drive over that night to see you and tell you about the nightmare I was going through, the whole time all I wanted was to keep you safe, but deep down I wanted you to have hugged me and told me don't worry it 'll all be ok. "

she tried to interrupt, I halted her with my hand and spoke louder so she had to listen... " you just didn't trust me, and yeah you hurt me. The person I thought cared about me and loved me, turned against me. the first thing you did was pack up the car with the kids and run off back to your ma and pa, you left me alone....."

Tears filled her eye's, crocodile tears... " Oh stop D, fake tears hold nothing to me, you know I'm stood here now, and we have spent a lifetime together, but I really don't know you at all.... and that is what scares me..."

Sobbing now she spoke, "but I love you, isn't that worth fighting for? we had a great sex life..."

"No what we had died a long, long time ago, way before all this started, I was just to blind to see,"

she stammered, "but our sex life..."

I interrupted, "was non existent, jeeze, you were so cold most times it was like trying to seduce a fucking ice cube..."

"no you just came home and expected me to open my legs for you.." the venom had returned, the old D was coming back...

"No, I never, all's I wanted was a hug, a kiss and maybe you to instigate making love to me cause you had missed me?,  but that never happened did it? .... so do us both a favour already and lay off the drama, its over Dot,  just let me go? ok?"

"what so you can spend your life with this...this.... this...."

"Careful D, don't fucking go there not now...,"

"Or what?"

"Don't push me, I'm begging you?"

"Why truth hurt?"

"Truth what the fuck you know about truth huh?"

"Well I know infidelity when its stood in front of me, that's for sure?"

  "Yeah course you do,  next you'll tell me, your not screwing anyone right now?"

"there was a danger in my tone, but she paid no attention.

"that's right Mr smarty pants, cause I'm not..."

"Right, so when you leave here your not going to see your guy?"

"What guy? stop playing fucking games Jon.. this is about you and me..?"

"Is it? really?  I don't fucking think so, ,,,, no what, I'm one hundred percent sure, soon as you can, your gonna go back to fucking Justin, or whoever is your flavour of the month right now... so  do us a favour and just stop the guilt trip..."

she looked shocked I knew about her infidelity, "You know about that?"

"well it don't take a scientist to figure that when your wife don't want your cock she's getting somewhere."

"but how you know his name?"

"our kids Dot, OUR FUCKING KIDS...." I took a step back and exhaled and took another breath in before continuing,

"You flaunt your bow in front of the kids, they talk D and they let me know, here's a fact for you, Did you know that your daughter saw you in the oat house making out with him?,"

she hung her head and answered in a quiet voice, "No I didn't, when did she tell you?"

"It don't fucking matter when, does it, fact is I know, the kids know, and all this?" I threw my arms wide, is nothing, our lives have been nothing, and I tired of everything, the bullshit, the lies, the stress..... "

"and your kids?"

"No not my kids, they are the reason I've carried on the marriage, just for them, but I've spoken to them and they are happy for me to start a fresh with someone new... they know how you have abused me... "

"how the fuck have I abused you?"

"Oh please, lets just finish it here, ok, I'm tired, real tired and I just can't be fucked to answer anymore of your lies and self justification." I turned to walk away, and made the mistake of taking my eye's off D, the next I remember was Madison screaming my name Jon, as I hit the floor.

Chapter Eighty Four

Apprehensively I shifted nearer to Madison who was still out cold. my eye's flicking to the knife and then this person who looked like Antonia, but I was so confused I did not really know who the hell this was. "Why you asking? What is it with you?"
I yelped as she stood quick and caught my side, blood seeped through the torn hole in my shirt. My hand protectively clamped over the fresh wound.
"You dare to question me?, If I ask something you answer me, got it...." She waved the knife around in her hand in a stabbing motion and used it to emphasise her words as she spoke.
I shook my head.  and answered calmly " I Guess so..."
she re seated herself next to me, feeling uncomfortable and anxious, I hoped that the performance by Dot was a pretence and that she had really not left me and Madison alone with this pyscho but had gone to raise the alarm and call for help.
"so, that's better, I'm sitting all comfortable, so sweet cakes what went down?"
An alarm rang in my head as my mouth hit out exactly what I was thinking....
"Sweet Cakes? where the fuck you get that from?"
I swear I saw a flicker of fear, which she quickly covered up, "Its a family saying... no biggie, now you gonna tell or do I need to get rough..."
I'd hit the nail on the head, and on a roll I continued,
"Your Antonia right?, your not dead?, you never were, your pretending you are someone else cause the police want answers from you?.... c'mon talk, God,  I'm so right aint I?"
she stood again, the knife still clutched tightly in her hand, the blood that had seeped from the wound she had inflicted had ceased, thankfully; so I gathered it was just a flesh wound, at most a scratch.
"well?"
this time ready for a fight I stood and moved towards her, she backed away near to the window, her bravado had dimmed, as I took a stand.
I was cautious of the knife and knew not to back her into a corner, so stood some feet away, but made my body language clear I wanted answers. "Well, what fucking game are you playing?, you and your goons put me in hospital..."
she shook her head and tears filled the back of her eye's, "yeah, and yours did me too..."
"So you are Antonia?"
"Yeah, what of it?"
the arrogance returned as she tried to regain leadership, its just she now underestimated not just me, but my family and Madison, who I caught out the corner of my eye was gaining consciousness. I blocked it and hoping Antonia had not seen either and carried on interrogating her.
"So why you let everyone think your dead, Richie rang the hospital, they told him you were dead, how you managed that eh Antonia? who's on your payroll now?"
She seated her butt on the window ledge, and tried to act nonchalantly, but somehow she had a fear that she had never projected ever before.
I took another step closer, "well I'm waiting?"
"there's no-one, I'm all alone, you saw to that.."
I saw to that? how exactly have I? you have made my life hell and tortured me for months, you halted my tour, raped me and put me in hospital, just how the hell have I made your life so bad your all alone, You not think you need to take ownership for that?,  you created your fate, now its time to except the consequences. "
She stood, "Oh you think you are the one to make me do that do you?," her voice started shaking and faltering as sobs began to fall and she spoke between the gasps, " my only crime here is that I love you Jon, all I ever wanted was one night with you, you have given lots of your fans that, why could you not do that for me? huh, you pushed me t do the things I did, you made me get my brother and mom involved, you caused my moms nephew's to be murdered by your mom and her goon, so yeah you are responsible...."
"Jesus Christ, can you hear yourself?, do you really believe all the crap that just fell from your mouth? you are a god damn fucking stalker, you don't love me, cause you don't fucking know me... what goes round in your head is serious fucked up shit, that I cant fix, no one can... but what I will say is, for yourself, go get some serious professional help and get locked away for a long time where you cant cause anymore pain for anyone, ever..."
I turned my body from her and started to walk back over to where Madison was sitting, conscious not to take my eye's fully off Antonia, out the corner of my eye I saw her move, and as I turned to block her Madison was in front of her and in seconds had disarmed her and had knocked her out cold on the floor.
"Maddy, what the hell?, I thought you were still coming round....how did you?"
she stood next to me, her eye's still glazed, her speech still a little slurred, but she was on fighting form and make no mistake about it, even though she was a touch unsteady too.
"I saw her move, she had the knife raised, she was going to kill you Jon, I couldn't let her kill my boyfriend could I?"
she was smiling at me as she stood still a little uneasy on her feet, I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her into me for a kiss, just as Dot and the police broke down the door and joined us in the sitting room.
Antonia the focus who now was the one laying there unconscious.

Chapter Eighty Three

I looked at the knife and took my seat next to Madison,  I was not in the mood to play stupid games that could make it worse for Madison and me, plus my head was hurting trying to make sense of it all.
"See you can do what your told, best for everyone that ya do..."
My gaze settled on D, what had she got to do with anything?, was she friends with Antonia and her gang? If so was it from the start or recent.
She saw me watching her. "What Jon? You think I'm connected to this shit don't you?"
"Yeah, why shouldn't I?, what I'm trying to figure is why and when?"
She stood and placing her hands on her hips she took three strides to reach where I was sat next to Madison.
" well, now, and I thought you knew me?, tut tut, shame on you."
She was trying to start in on her games again.
"Stop ok? I'm sick of the lies and crap that spins from your mouth..... your playing games again, and I'm tired of playing, so just out with it and tell me as is it... And just so you know, this aint about you."
I watched her as her face turned to stone and a rage I'd never seen set in and took hold. "Oh but it so is, I've been cheated on, lied to, I've been left alone to handle the kids while you go off being a rock star, you have never once thought about me or your family... ever.... but you know me as a person Jon, you know what I am, who I am and what I stand for, how can you even consider that I am connected to this ..." she snarled her lips as she pointed to Antonia, "Thing..., you have hurt me now more times than I can count on one hand, this...." again she pointed at Antonia or her twin, "one person has let me add, not only just wrecked your life but mine and the kids too...sadly I guess the whole reality is, I'm sick and tired of all the bullshit... I've lived with one thing after the other for years and this last stunt is of such an epic level, I guess that's why I want out, and now I am prepared to take whatever opportunity comes my way to do that..."

"really? have you heard yourself? what you are saying is, that I have brought all this shit to our door, and I'm to blame for the situation we are all living in right now?, what fucking part of this have I encouraged or staged in anyway to bring as you call it bullshit to your door Dot?"

she turned her head, and walked to the window and looked out across the green.

"You gonna answer me?"

she turned, "No I'm not, I've said alls I want to say."

"Man you are a full on faced shit bitch...."

she mocked as she repeated "Shit bitch?"

"Fuck you D"

"no Jon, I'm not fucked, you are...."  she strode to the door, then turning she looked back over her shoulder, "I'm so outta here..." then she was gone.

the twin, clapped her hands in mock applause, "well, well, well, all is not sitting well in the Bongiovi house is it.... and your  little friend there is out cold too... so now it's really is just you and me...."

she dragged the knife along my cheek bone and under my chin onto my neck and hovered the blade around my adams apple.

"your eye's tell me your scared Jon... now why would that be I wonder..."

"how about the rape Antonia, have you forgotten what you and your goons did to me?"

"Antonia?, who is Antonia?, did I say I was Antonia? no, I didn't, and right now, I don't know if I want you to know who I am... and that's how its gonna stay..." she sat next to me, still with the knife at my throat she, taunted..."Rape you say, Oooh do tell me more..."

I remained silent, she dug the sharp end of the knife into my neck just above my adams apple, I felt the warm trickle of blood run down my neck. "you want me to dig harder? you want your vocal chords cut so you will be a real life mute, or you gonna tell?"

I held my hand up, "Ok, ok, but do my a small favour and call the medic for Madison, she aint done jack to you?, look at her man, she's out of it and needs attention..."

"Oh I don't think your in any position to bargain right now do you? so I ask once again and once only, tell me about the rape."

her eye's were glinting and I saw behind them a rage that held no bounds.

 

 

Chapter Eighty two

I stayed knelt down by Madison,  watching her while I waited for the emergency crew to arrive. I checked my watch, then after five minutes checked it again...  where were they?. D was sat across the other side of the room on a chair by the window. She kept looking out over the grounds then looking at her cell.
Given I was pre occupied with Madison I'd not really paid attention to her, but now as I studied her it struck me she was acting very strange. I said nothing.... until there came a knock at the door and she all but leapt outta her skin.

I went to answer the door expecting to see the emergency crew on the other side, but there was no one there.

"Strange..." D jumped again as I spoke and re entered the sitting room.. 

" what's with you?"

"I'm uncomfortable sitting here with you and your girlfriend." her eyes burned into me, and she fidgeted with the necklace hanging around her neck.

"Really?" I knew she was lying, I had been married to her for too long not to notice when she was hiding something.

"Yeah really..." this time her eye's avoided my gaze and she continued looking out of the window. Knowing she was hiding something I wouldn't let it go. " Not buying that crap, c'mon out with it, what you hiding?"

"Nothing I've told you...now let me alone..."

"I'll leave you alone when you tell me what's going on..." then it dawned on me, dot had said "do drug stores and coffee places spike drinks..." How would she know that, she was in the den when I spoke to Madison, unless someone had already told her.

"How did you know that Madison had been to the drug store and Starbucks for a coffee? I didn't know she'd had coffee until she came home? well?"

Dot got up from her seat and walked to the door and became defensive, which was another of the signs she was hiding something.

I said let me be Jon, I don't need this... it's not everyday you find your husband shacked up with some blonde bimbo of a nurse in favour of his marriage..."

"Nice Try Dot, but no dice, tell me what's going on and how you knew?"

"you must have mentioned it first?, now leave me alone... I'm going to the den..."

"I don't think so, go sit your ass down over there and start talking, or I swear to god I'll beat your ass black and blue..."

"Ha, I'd like to see you try... you don't scare me Jon, and for the last time I know nothing"

despite standing her ground she went back and sat on the chair, and with her face set like stone stared out of the window.

Checking my watch again, it was now some twenty minutes since the medics had been called...

talking aloud I asked, "God damn it where the fuck are they?"  

D spoke up without looking at me, "dealing with real urgent cases is my guess not just some intoxicated tart..."

Walking over to D I ordered, "Give me your cell?"

"no, I wont..."

"Stop pissing me off, give me your cell?"

"I said no..."

as she sat nervously twitching I snatched her cell from her grip, she tried to claw it back, but I moved away and scrolled through the last numbers dialled and found no call to 911, but there was a call made to a number not assigned a name.

"What the fuck, you never called 911?"

she tried to brazen it out, "I did, deleted it straight after the call..."

"Fuck, seriously, you expect me to believe that shit, what the fuck have you done, who was the number you dialled?"

She sat looking at me a sneer on her face,

"i'm telling you jack..."

As I moved over to take a hold of D a voice behind me spoke.

"Oh I guess that would be me..."

I spun round to find myself staring at Antonia.

"You, what the fuck, your dead?"

She smiled sinisterly at me, "Oh, are you really so dumb you aint figured it out yet?"

"Figured what out, Richie rang the hospital they said you were dead..."

She sided up next to me, and leant in close as she whispered, "I didn't say I was Antonia did I?"

I spat back, "Well if your not, who the fuck are you?"

"I'm karma, that's who the fuck I am.... and get ready baby, cause its gonna be a real bitch of  payback"

She had in her hand a knife, the blade glistened as she waved it in front of my eye's, time you took a seat next to your girlfriend...  

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter Eighty One

I could not believe what I was hearing, Dot had seen Antonia or the spit of her and had left her in the grounds of our home.
"dot don't get you? I mean seriously"
"Why?"
"you leave a deranged psycho in our home grounds, with no regard for anyone's safety, you think she's done nothing to you? how stupid can you be huh? , remember your stay in hospital?, how you think, or should I say who you think was responsible for that?, have you already forgotten about the conversation we had when you was in hospital about you being dead.... what fucking world are you living in?"
feeling really pissed, I started pacing.
the look of realisation suddenly hit home.
"Shit I'm a dumb ass..."
"no Dot your more than that, in an attempt to hurt me, you have willingly put yourself, me and the kids and our home under the attack of a pyscho, well fucking done, round of applause for the fucked up ex wife..."
"I'm sorry"
I was mid pace and stopped to turn and look at her, "Your what?"
sheepishly she repeated "I'm sorry, your right I did want to hurt you, I was consumed by my own jealousy of your new bow, I lost reason for a minute..."
"A minute? are you for fucking real, You have managed to put stupid on a level of intelligence..." I was stopped by a knocking at the front door. As I went to answer I threw at D, "I'm surprised the fucking bitch knocked..."
As I opened the Door,  I was stunned and shocked to see Madison stood there, surprised, I blurted "Babes, your back" she didn't answer but walked in,  I noticed she swaggered a little as she stepped past me. forgetting about D for a second I asked her, "You ok?"
she looked at me through glazed eye's and shook her head. "I feel kinda drunk... and strange, but I've not drank anything, I don't drink..."
I made her sit on the chair by the phone in the lobby, "What have you eaten or taken since we spoke, you were going to the drug store for your script, then what?"
"Nothing really I, called in to Starbucks and grabbed a coffee that's all, then got in the car and drove home.... " she shook her head as if trying to clear it, "Jon I don't feel good.... I think I'm gonna" she stood up and ran for the bathroom. I followed and stood outside listening as Madison retched. After a few minutes she came out and her complexion was white and wax like, her eye's were more glazed and she looked weak as if she was going to fall.  I slid my arm around her waist, something wasn't adding up. I took her to the sitting room then went off and fetched her some water. Handing it to her I ordered "sip this." my mind was racing clutching at straws trying to make sense out of all of this, all I could think was Madison's coffee was spiked or she had been drugged, I asked
"Where's the coffee cup?"
"In the car... I think..."
I took the keys and went out to the car and got the paper container that had the coffee in it, I opened the white plastic lid covering and sniffed, nothing jumped back other than coffee. this was strange. I took out the script that Madison had collected too, I checked inside, and it was birth control pills and Tylenol. I checked the packs but nothing had been used. then I noticed the bag of sweets sitting in the glove box, they looked like Lemon drops, I picked up the bag and with the other things went back into the house.
walking back into the sitting room D was sitting next to Madison, she looked at me as I entered, "Jon, you let someone that's intoxicated drive my kids home? and you give me a hard time."
"Shut up Dot, she's not intoxicated, she'd been drugged somehow?"
"Oh yeah right, cause every Starbucks and drug store tamper with your script and coffee don't they? she's drunk Jon look at her, she cant even keep her eye's open..."
I knelt down bedside's Madison. Taking her hands I looked at her, she was in and out of consciousness... "Babes, look at me?" she tried to lift her dropping head, but she couldn't manage to, when she spoke her words were slurred... and then she completely blacked out."
I shook her Madison?" no response, frantically I tired again, "Madison?" again nothing. "call 911"
"If you think I'm saving that bitch..."
" DOT FUCKING DIAL 911 NOW"
I made her jump but this time she did as she was told and dialled the emergency services. I sat with Madison checking her pulse which I was relieved was strong, but her colour was ashen and still wax looking in appearance and she had beads of sweat forming and dropping from her brow.
She did not wake,  A moan escaping from her lips only. What the fuck had happened?

Chapter Eighty

I squeezed Dots throat and airway real tight, she tried to wiggle free and use her karate moves but as she was pinned to the wall by me she could not cement her moves.
"Why do you have to be such a bitch huh?, now you better tell me what the fuck is and has been going on or I'm gonna squeeze every last breath from you, and I'll enjoy doing it, you understand?"
With her eye's bulging, under my grip, she gasped out the word, "ok"
I released my grip and allowed her to fall back on to the couch. She coughed and rubbed her neck where I'd held her, ghost finger marks from my grip remained.
"Well talk"
Between coughing she replied, " give me a second here"
"I've given you my life, so stop pissing me off and talk"
"You know,what you've just done I can have you arrested for assault? "
"What your trying I can have you locked up in jail, so stop playing me D"
"Jail? For talking? I don't think so"
"its not just talk though is it? It's blackmail and threats?"
The self satisfied expression return to her face, "your word against mine."

"enough of the bull, out with it or im outta here" still she tried, " why you making me out to be the bad guy, your not innocent either ya know?" A deep sigh escaped my lips as i made to leave the room "I've had it with you, no more lets call the cops and let them decide." 

she laughed "call the cops for what?, a lovers spat... Oh stop already, I'll tell you, but your not gonna like it..." I returned from the door and

sat on the chair near the desk, "Alright I'm listening out with it, but stall and it's game over? Got it"

"Ok, jeez when you get so uptight?" 

"Maybe when all this shit started, maybe cause im fucked up listening to you shouting bull...." i crossed my arms and stared at her and paused waiting for the next crap to start, this time she told me what i wanted to know. " so, you've been seeing flashes right? bright lights and shit?"

"Yeah, is it you?"

"No, are you gonna listen or not?"

"I'm listening aint I?"

"earlier after my stand off with your girlfriend, I was taken to ER right?"

"Yeah I was there"

"well as the medics were driving down the drive to the gate, I noticed flashing too, I put it down to sunlight reflection you know, anyways, after I was discharged I came back, it was getting dusk, you and the guys were still in the studio, I saw you all in there, I was making my way to the house  when I saw the flash again. I knew now it was not sunlight so set off to investigate."

"And?"

"well that's the darndest thing yet?"

"when I approached the bushes I found a women and she was burying stuff?"

"What stuff.?"

" not sure but looked like mirrors, and flashlights, I can show you where it is, but she'd pretty much finished up when I got there."

"I made her jump and asked her what she was doing"

"when she looked up to speak it took my breath away...."

"Who was it D?"

"well I'm not sure but I thought it was that women that had stalked you..."

"It cant be Rich rang the hospital and they said she's dead."

"well if she's dead then she has a twin... cause It looked like her too me.. here take a look?"

D pulled her cell from her pocket and flicked it to the snaps she had taken and there looking back at me was Antonia.

"What the fuck? what you do?"

"I ordered her off of our property, she was protesting she had legal rights being here and that all the documents were in the gate house.... so I went there looking for stuff but found nothing."

"You left her?"

"Yeah, she seemed harmless to me, and without proof what could I do?"

"Wait a god damn second here, your a  black belt sixth Dan karate champion and you left a god damn stalker loose in the grounds, are you friggin for real? after what I've gone through?"

"well that's just it see, she aint done jack to me. so why not... I was hoping to see her kick your girl friends ass..."

"So she's still out there now right?"

Could be who knows?"

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chapter Seventy Nine

I stood looking at the women that I had been married too for years, and realised I really didn't know her at all. That kinda spooked me.
"what are playing at Dot?"
"Oh I'm not playing Jon, I mean business, which is what this is all about... and now I have your attention, do you not think we can at least sit down and talk like the adults we are?"
I moved back round inside and sat at the desk.
I looked at D a cold feeling in my heart, I cannot believe I had ever loved her, it was like the blinkers had been lifted and I was seeing her with new eyes for the very first time.
With little to no know emotion in my voice I spoke,

"So talk."
She sat on the couch opposite the desk and crossed her legs and inter linked her fingers and lent forward as she spoke.
"Right this is what I want, and when you hear my proposal I'm sure you will think it fair..."
"I'm listening"
"right, I want you to buy me out of this place, and I agree to accept your original idea of moving and living in the Hamptons with the SoHo apartment in New York, but I do want a salary too, I had thought about having a one off payment but that is no good to me, so here's what I propose, you give me a monthly salary of $50,000, and I'll agree to have the kids live with me and carry on providing for them so you can go off and do what it is you enjoy doing, look at it as a business investment " she sat back and smiled to herself thinking she had won.
I studied her, and it dawned on me she thought she had something over me she could use, I was sure of it.
I asked the question, "And if I disagree? "
"Oooh I wouldn't do that..."
"and why not?"
"well lets just say Maddy, is that what you call her? she aint back yet is she?, a little car trouble wasn't it?"
"What have you done?"
"Oh nothing yet... as I said it all depends on you?"
I looked at D in total disbelief, "when you get so cold?" Then I answered my own question, "no you ain't just become cold, that's really who you are right?; I've been fooled all these years..... God you're some peice of work you know that?"
She clapped her hands together in a mock applause, "really jon, you used to love that I was independent, not clingy and needy, now your calling it cold, fact is Jon, I've not changed, you have, you've become a sad pathetic weak man, you know I used to respect you and your values; now all I can think is pity and from that I see an opportunity."
"Really? If that's what you think you see? You are way off Base. ..and D you really don't know me at all....."
She rolled her eye's to the ceiling..."Oh please.... everything you do is predictable, why you think it was so easy for that women to stalk you? Cause you are predictable, same routine, different day. Take a good hard look at yourself jon, wake up and taste the coffee" she sat back on the couch and laughed. I could not believe the audacity of the women, but she was not gonna win...
" You can believe what you want, that's your right, and maybe at times I am repetative,  but that's cause I care, I have a heart. Yeah Antonia saw her chance and she took it, but the world is full of whackos, and I guess I should thank you for your enlightened talk, now I know I've been married to one for years... as for your proposal and plan, you can shove it. I'll see you in court before I give you one cent... remember this D, you need to prove you have provided half of the money to get your share, and you haven't... your pathetic attempt from teaching brought in measly bucks, so not substantial... so do your worse... the fight is on"

I got up and walked to the door and opened it for her to leave, but she remained seated, "And Maddy?"

"what about her?"

"You want to have a nice life don't you?"

"out with it Dot..."

"Well either agree or she wont be getting home anytime soon tonight,?"

"wait a minute your blackmailing me?"

"No Jon, I'm bargaining and using the only think that you seem intent on protecting right now..."

"don't forget Maddy is a 6th dan black belt, you seriously think you stand a chance against her, she's young, fit and if she can whoop your ass, she'll do it to whoever gets in her face..."

she smirked, "mmm maybe, but not if its a gun..."

I moved so fast I left a dust trail in my wake as I reached out and grabbed D round the throat and dragged her to her feet, she had no time to react and the look on her face was fear. "I think you have underestimated me Dot, told you that you didn't know me..."

 

Chapter seventy eight

As I sat waiting, and willing my phone to ring; or should that be praying, I had a real bad feeling Maddy was in trouble, and the more I tried telling my brain she was ok, the more my muscles tensed and my anxiety grew. My concentration staring at the phone left me looking through burned blurred eyes.... then a knock came at the door. I all but ran to answer it, talking aloud as I opened the door, "well it's about time where you been?" I was not ready to see my soon to be ex wife Dorothea stood on the other side.
The hostility in my voice told her she was not welcome.
"What you want Dorothea?"
"To talk, nothing more, you owe me that don't you?...... Please?"
I relented and moved to the side to let her pass, but could not stop myself being sarcastic. " what ? you need another whipping? one not enough. you need a whole bunch?"
"Ok, enough jon, I'm not proud of myself I over reacted and got what I deserved"
"Dang right you did, thought you were at ER anyway?"
"I did, I'm bruised that's all, a few tynlenol until the swelling goes down and alls good"
" And just what the fuck were you doing at the gate house?" I started moving back to the den, with rushing so fast to get to the door I'd left my cell.
D followed me, "well if you hold up I'll tell you?"
I reached the den and quickly checking to see if there were any missed calls,  there weren't so with my butt resting on the desk I turned to look at D,  " so talk?"

As D started to speak my cell vibrated and started to ring, I looked at the caller and saw Maddison's name. I held up my hand to stop her and walked out of the den to the hallway to take the call.

"Maddy where the fuck are you? are you ok?"

"Hi, yeah I'm fine, just a slight problem with the car but its sorted, I'm bout five minutes from home..."

"I was worried, why didn't you call?"

"I have called... I'm a big girl don't stress ok, I'll be back in a few minutes, I'm just stopping at the drug store to get my script anything you need?"
"at 12.45am?"
"Yeah its when its  quietest.. so you need anything?"

"No, I'm good,  look I know your a big girl but stay safe and hurry back ok?"  

"Ok, I promise..."

I ended the call but still I had an uneasy feeling, for the life of me I had no idea why... I walked back inside the Den.

D started in straight away, "That was her wasn't it?"

"Yeah, what of it?" my tone told her to be careful, instead of bitching she hanged her tactic...

"Why she out so late anyway?"

"She took the kids back to my mom's.."

"Whoa there, you let a stranger take my kids in a car?"

"Drop the bullshit Dot,  she's no stranger..."
"Maybe not to you, but she is to me.. how could you Jon?"
"How could I what? you don't care abut the kids, you never have, there have been a bargaining tool like everything else in your life...."

"how can you say that?, I've always been an excellent mom, that hurts, sure i'm no angel but I love my babies..."
she turned her head away so I wouldn't see the tears falling.
"Stop already, your full of croc D, you know what I'm saying..."
she spun back round to look at me, a fire and hatred in her eye's that had never been seen before,
" and all the years I was bringing up the kids like a single parent? what about those times eh? was I bargaining with them then."
I'd heard enough, it was clear she wanted to start a fight, "look you said you wanted to talk, so either talk or leave, I've no more time for this crap..."
"Oh Mr Big man, calling the shots eh?"
this time my Italian temper joined the party as I screamed back
"D, STOP, I DONT FUCKING NEED THIS RIGHT NOW"  I walked to the door as she stood and blocked me from leaving...
with a sneer on her face, she looked at me and asked, "Don't you want to know what's been going on here all day and night then?"

 

Chapter Seventy Seven

"What you mean dead? Is she.... like dead dead?" My head could not comprehend the words that came out of Richies mouth, and I was cringing hearing myself ask the stupid questions.
"Yeah, dead as she can be. I told the hospital I was a relative, I gave her brothers name Tony." Rich walked over and slapped me on my back, "your troubles are over buddy"
Without realising I gave rich the stink eye, "hey, what's with the look eh? Thought you'd be pleased..... what you've seen and heard ain't Antonia. "
"And cause it ain't her, you think my life can return to normal?, you not think her mom is gonna want a peice of me now her daughter is dead? Man my problems have only just begun."
"Jon what you taking, her mom is locked up right in some Jail, she ain't getting out an time soon, her goons and brothers are outta the picture too.... what you think she has henchmen hired on a payroll somewhere? "
"I dunno Rich, but there's some strange shit going on here today, I wanna forget it but something is biting at me telling me alls not right."
Teek joined in, " hey that's to be expected with what you've gone thru, but today could be circumstance?"
This time I threw my stink eye at Teek,  "circumstance? What about the voice David and me heard? Explain that?"
He looked at me as he lit his fifth cigarette in minutes, as he exhaled the blue smoke, and looking ahead he replied, "I don't have all the answers, but you need to be logical not hysterical, is alls I'm saying."
I looked at the rest of the guys, even matty was shaking his head in agreement,  the only person to agree with me was David. " no what guys, I hear ya I do, but you weren't there, the voice spoke from right behind us, when we turned round no one was there. You can't apply logic to that."
Matt asked, "why can't ya? Seems if you want it to be unexplained spooky shit, it's gonna, everything  in life has an explanation it just depends on if you want to hear it and accept it."
"So your saying were imagining it matt? Is that it? You think were both screwballs now?"
I gave him a look to be mindful of his reply, " no I'm not saying your screwballs,  I'm saying your getting carried away with everything...."
This time my voice was dangerous as I repeated his statement. "Carried away?"
Matt paid no attention to me and carried on, "well yeah, look you have been to hell and back with Antonia, " I interrupted, "you think?" "Yeah and drop the attitude Bro,  open your ears for once, stop trying to intimidate me and the guys and listen, OK? " I stood silent for a few seconds and looked at my baby brother standing up to me for the first time in his life, and at that moment I could not decide if he was brave or stupid. He continued, "no one is judging you or David on what you saw and heard, we're trying to be supportive and offer some suggestions, advice, comfort call it what you will, but all were hearing is dismissal of suggestions, to us it's like you want it to be, oh I dunno.... " Rich joined in, "un-natural"
"Yeah, un natural" David had stood listening as the guys shared there wisdom, and take on the events, so now I had to know, was it just me, or was he still with me on this one.
I asked him, " so I've heard from them, you were with me, what's your take on it all now?"
"Jon, I hear the guys, I hear you, for me what I seen and heard has scared the shit outta me, I wanna believe the logic, but I can't,  what I saw and heard the logic spoken here tonight, just don't gel, and I ain't gonna try to convince anyone, it maybe one of those things that will never be answered, who knows eh..   so I'm still with you on this one buddy, and on that note, I'm going home.... I'll print off the shots and courier them over tomorrow OK? " He straightend himself and moved to the door, raising his arm in goodbye salute to the guys he was gone.

 

As David had gone it wasn't long before the guys were making there excuses to leave too, and I found myself back at the door watching them leave.

As Teek was the last to go, I secured the door behind him, and double checked it was locked. I made the usual route around the house doing the same with all the windows and other exit doors too. Half an hour later I was back in the kitchen and fixing coffee. I looked at the clock on the wall and it hit me that Madison had not come home yet. With Coffee in hand I made my way to the den and called my ma's number on my cell.

"Hey Ma, what time Madison drop the kids with you?"

"Ages ago, why?"

"how long?"

"I dunno, bout half hour or more, she not back?"

"no, she say anything bout stopping for gas?"

"no, no cant say she did, but it could be hold ups on the free way, you know how it is..."

"not at 12.30am ma... ok, I'll call her cell..."

Jon, you know I'm sorry... can we..."

"ma, not now ok, I have to go, we'll speak soon,,, night..."

I ended the call as I did not want a full scale spat with my ma again on the phone. I felt an uneasy feeling in my bones and rang Madisons phone. it rang and rang and rang and went to voice mail, "Hey this is Madison, I cant get to the phone right now, so leave your voice and If I like the sound of ya ill get back to ya..." I left my message, "Maddy, where are you call me its Jon"

as I ended the call I sat on the couch in the den and watched waiting for my phone to ring...

Chapter Seventy Six

Both David and I spun on our heels to see who was behind us, when we looked there was no one there. "What the fuck?"
"you heard that voice to right David?"
"fuck yeah I heard it?, what the fuck is going on Jon?"
"I wish I knew bud, I don't know bout you but I say lets get back to the house... and fast"
"Yeah and call the cops, there is some real spooky shit going on here..."
we took off in the cart back to the house, walking back into the kitchen the guys were all back...
"hey, where you and David go? we've been waiting to approve the photo's? we have lives other than Jovi you know" Rich joked.
I looked at Rich in total shock as I asked the same question "where the fuck have you guys been? we came out of the john and you'd gone, back door was open, and shit left everywhere?"
"What ya mean where we been, we checked out the new boat, I did tell you right? when we were in the studio?, Matt took us, its no biggie is it?" I felt real dumb as I answered,
"no-no-no that's fine, I forgot that's all..."
Rich asked again, "So where you both been? you look shaken bro what's up?"
David spoke, "that's cause we are shook, man there's some serious spooky shit going on out there tonight?"
Teek spoke, "spooky shit? what spooky shit?"
"If I told ya, you wouldn't believe it..."
"Try me?"
David told Teek what we had seen and sure enough, it wasn't long before rational thinking came into play.  David was leaning on the counter top, his camera still slung over his left shoulder, "no Teek, we know it wasn't a light from a flashing car, and it wasn't poachers with flashlights, or a refraction from a mirror, how do you explain Jon seeing the same thing during daylight time eh?"
Teek shrugged his shoulders and took out his cigarettes and it one and inhaled deeply, then spent the next ten minutes coughing trying to appease his poor lungs of the poison he was addicted to.
David coughed and wafted his hand in the air to rid the filtering smoke that was trying to infiltrate his own airways... "Man I cant believe your still smoking this shit?"
between coughing Teek gasped, I've cut it down to 3 packs a  day," then holding up his hand and bright red in the face he gasped, "I'm good" David laughed at Teek but moved away from the offending smoke and hoped it would not follow him "  Once teek had stopped coughing, he drew hard on the cigarette and inhaled deep before exhaling the smoke back into the room. He stood with his smoke cloud enjoying his vice.
the guys had been listening to David when he told Teek, so I had to give an explanation to the guys on what we had seen too, and just like Teek they were throwing idea's of logic into play. Same idea's as Teek had mentioned, then during a silent pause Rich was the one to out what we were all thinking, "You think its Antonia?"
"I honest to god don't know, I hope and pray not, last I knew she was in hospital knocking on hells door, but you never can tell..."
"So you not think making a phone call to the hospital would give you a simple answer?"
"How can I do that Rich? huh? think about it..."
he stood looking deep in thought before the dawn of realisation clicked in his mind...  "Got it, got it, she's your stalker right? your not hers..."
"Bingo.."
"So what about one of us then? we can check? right?" he looked at all the guy's and each shook their heads and agreed. "and the lucky guy is...." Rich made a drum roll sound waiting for my decision.
"Stop, ok, I cant make that call, its up to you guys if you want to help or not, I'm sure as hell not forcing anyone.... I'll be back ok, I'm gonna go check on Madison and the kids."
walking through the lobby, I saw a dark shadow whip across the sitting room, I stopped momentarily and put my head round the door and looked inside, nothing was there, so I carried on round to the den where I'd left the kids and Madison.
I knocked on the door and walked inside, all of them were sat on the couch, or round the desk listening to Madison, she stopped as I walked in.  My face must have showed my worry as the first thing she asked was "You ok?" I shook my head, "Yeah sure," then addressing the kids, "ok guys time to go..." sounds of protest were short lived as I gave them the stink eye, then one by one they walked past me and out to get their stuff.
Madison came up close to me, she whispered low, " So if your ok, why re you looking so worried, what's gone down? you had a show down with the guy's? " I shook my head, "no, nothing like that... I good really?" I smiled at her, "See?"
She folded her arms across her chest, "no way, I'm not buying it Jovi, what's going on?" As I moved to leave the room and follow the kids she stood blocking the doorway, stopping me leaving.  frustrated I snapped,
"not now Madison ok, I need to get the kids back to my ma..."
she still stood her ground, showing just how stubborn she could be, "eh huh, not till you tell me..."
" I will but later ok?"
"No, now."
In defeat I walked back to the desk holding my hands waist high, "ok, look its gonna sound crazy, shit it is crazy, but something is going on here that I can't explain..."
"such as.."
"flashing of white, voices heard clearly by David and me, but no one is there.... its been happening on and off all day... and then again tonight."
Madison looked at me, "So why you not tell me?"
"Cause, I thought it was me at first.. but then I saw it again, then with David too....I dunno, how do you tell someone, what you think you saw?, C'mon really?"
a worried look settled on her face, "you called the cops?"
"for what? for seeing things and hearing voices that then shows no one there, man are you serious, I'll be locked up on some psych ward and put on a thorazine drip.."
"So your gonna ignore it?"
"what else can I do? David and me went out on the grounds looking, and what we found  was Kav injured, why? cause I'd asked him to go check, on what I thought I was seeing.... man he's near lost his leg in a trap cause of me."
" how you know it's cause of you? accidents do happen..."
"Yeah? but that's just it? was it an accident...... Jesus listen to me....." I sat down at the desk and placed my head in my hands, my finger tips playing massage at my aching temples... "I'm doubting everything right now, and everyone..."
Madison came over, stood behind me she rested her arms around my shoulders and lent in close,  "look why don't you stay here and finish up with the guys and I'll drive the kids back to your mom's"
I looked up, my fingers paused on my temples for a second, "You'd do that?"
"Course, why not?"
"no reason, I'm just not used to having volunteered help that's all...its nice.."
"Good, get used to it, I'll go grab my key's, you write your ma's address down and I'll be back."
she kissed my cheek as she went to get her things... I found a pen in the desk draw and wrote my ma's address on a post it note, then sat with my head in my hands and rubbing my temples again of the ache that was increasing with every stroke.... I sat for what felt like ages waiting for Madison to come back.... I checked the clock on the wall, she had been gone ten minutes, I was just abut to go find her when she came back smiling and looking flustered,  a little breathless she spoke, " couldn't find my keys..."
she waved them proudly to show she had found them, I stood and gave her the post it as we both walked out of the den and back to the kitchen where the kids were talking with the guys.
"Ok kids, ready?"
"all shook their heads and came to stand by my side, then out to the drive as the kids got in the car with Madison, we stood waving until the tail lights were but a dot in the distance. the only one of us that was not out was Rich, as we filtered back inside the house, he hung u the phone receiver before he came over to speak to me. He face was serious. "I've rang the hospital bro,"
"yeah"
"Jon, I don't know how your gonna feel about this..."
"Yeah, for fuck sake Rich out with it... this aint no soap opera"
"Antonia... she's dead."

Chapter seventy Five

I stood looking in disbelief at the figure in the security booth. Edging nearer I watched what they were doing, they were looking through the log book the guys kept of visitors to the estate. I stepped a little nearer to get an even better view as my foot caught on a fallen branch and it snapped. The person looked up from what they were doing and saw me outside. "shit" I had no where to hide, and with nothing I could do, I walked round too the booth door and went inside.  I had to focus, kav was injured,  and simple fact was , i needed the trap key, and to call 911.  Stepping inside she spoke,
"Jon"
"D"
"I can explain..."
"Save it"
"You don't care?"
"No, "
"That's cold...you used to care,what changed?"
"You did Dot"
"No fair, your just as guilty of that too"
I held my hands in the air, I had no time for her stupid games anymore so blanked her and continued looking for the key.
"You not talking now?"
I remained silent, then I found the key and picked up the phone, this one was live as it ran on a separate line, and dialled 911.
It was made near impossible with D screaming and shouting in the background like a banshee, but carried on and managed the call successfully. Hanging up the phone I made to leave to head back out to kav, when D caught my arm.

"Let go D"

"Jon, please we need to talk"

I jerked my arm away from her grip, "not now D.." I stepped outside the booth and made my way back to the cart, D followed, still shouting, "Where you off too now, to screw your bitch again?"

my hands were placed on the wheel, I paused briefly, to reply, but changed my mind. D was not worth anymore of my energy, instead I put my foot on the pedal and  drove off heading back out to Kav, and left D stood shouting after me.

Crawling around the edge I again saw the light that David and left still shining through the trees, stopping the cart I made my way back through the growth to the guys without incident, kneeling down and with the key  now in the lock, I turned it and released the trap.  Slowly and carefully both David and me opened the trap wide enough so we could remove Kav's injured leg. David said we should really have waited for the medics, but we both knew they would not be able to get through the growth and bushes with there kit and gurney, and we couldn't move Kav without removing the trap first, so we had no other choice.
As we released his leg, both David and I looked at the injury, the trap had gnawed into his muscles, and broke his leg, that was plain to see, I felt sick to my stomach and hoped that his leg could be saved, as I looked at David I knew he was thinking the same too.,  Kav watched us, then asked in a strained pained voice. "Is it bad?"

both David and I  locked eyes, as I replied, " can't tell from here bud, its too dark, just lie still for a second ok, help is on the way."

In the distance the sirens could be heard, they got louder as they neared, David and me left it for as long as we dare before each taking an end and pulling Kav back through the growth to the green lawn. Out again in the open space we lay him down gently. David lit his camera light and shone it directly towards the ambulance so they could see where we were, both of us relieved they could see the light, which had dimmed from the battery dying out from the constant use. they drove straight over  in our direction. and stopped just short of where we were standing next to Kav.

The medics worked fast and in no more than minutes had hom secured on the gurney and into the back of the ambulance, they gave us the Er details of where he was going before they set off sirens blasting as they left.
David and me stood standing watching as they left neither of us making a move. I think the enormity and shock of Kav had left us both shell shocked. David asked as he looked over to the security booth, "who's that stood there."

"D"

"D, thought she was at the emergency room?"

"me too, guess she was released"

"what she want?"

I shrugged my shoulders as I answered, "to talk she says."

"you gonna?"

"I don't know, this is all fucked up..."

"Jon, man, really? you need to be true to yourself, stop living your life trying to please others. You know we aint getting any younger, and don't ya think its about time your were happy?"

I shook my head, "yeah but its not that simple, I've four kids caught in the middle of all this."

"Yeah, kids that are loved by both of you, and are grounded and growing up, and wont be kids forever..."

again I shook my head, "I know, but I have to keep it on a civil level..."

he patted my shoulder, "Course you do bud."
our conversation was cut short as we saw in the distance heading to the house a white flash, the same as we saw earlier. "You see that?"
"fuck yeah." looking at the booth I knew it was not D as she was still there, back inside looking for something.
"Man, Jon, this is serious, are you gonna call the cops, or we still gonna play detective, cause I aint cut out for this bro.."
I looked at David, and through the light of the moon I could see he was scared witless.
"Look, how can I call the cops for seeing a flash of white, we don't know what the fuck it is?"
"Ok, columbo, what's your idea then huh?"
"Lets head back to the house, find the guys and forget it until morning?"
"have you lost your freaking mind? have you finally gone nuts? you wanna forget what we have seen? man whatever is out there is still there and I for one aint staying here tonight, period..."
I laughed, "calm down ok?, I'm sure its nothing."
"You know what it is don't ya?"
"no, I have no idea, but look there's the kids, Madison, Rich, Teak, and Dave and my brother, plus you and me against whatever, or whoever that is. Lets get real here... you not think were over reacting?"
"ok, but one thing has your plan fucked.."
"what?"
"where the fuck are the guys?"
he stood with his arms across his chest, looking straight in front.
he was right, in the aftermath of finding Kav I had forgotten the guys had disappeared. I was about to say something when a voice spoke in the darkness from behind me. "Bit late for a walk aint it?"
I was froze to the spot in fear, could it really be happening.