Chapter Eighty Three

I looked at the knife and took my seat next to Madison,  I was not in the mood to play stupid games that could make it worse for Madison and me, plus my head was hurting trying to make sense of it all.
"See you can do what your told, best for everyone that ya do..."
My gaze settled on D, what had she got to do with anything?, was she friends with Antonia and her gang? If so was it from the start or recent.
She saw me watching her. "What Jon? You think I'm connected to this shit don't you?"
"Yeah, why shouldn't I?, what I'm trying to figure is why and when?"
She stood and placing her hands on her hips she took three strides to reach where I was sat next to Madison.
" well, now, and I thought you knew me?, tut tut, shame on you."
She was trying to start in on her games again.
"Stop ok? I'm sick of the lies and crap that spins from your mouth..... your playing games again, and I'm tired of playing, so just out with it and tell me as is it... And just so you know, this aint about you."
I watched her as her face turned to stone and a rage I'd never seen set in and took hold. "Oh but it so is, I've been cheated on, lied to, I've been left alone to handle the kids while you go off being a rock star, you have never once thought about me or your family... ever.... but you know me as a person Jon, you know what I am, who I am and what I stand for, how can you even consider that I am connected to this ..." she snarled her lips as she pointed to Antonia, "Thing..., you have hurt me now more times than I can count on one hand, this...." again she pointed at Antonia or her twin, "one person has let me add, not only just wrecked your life but mine and the kids too...sadly I guess the whole reality is, I'm sick and tired of all the bullshit... I've lived with one thing after the other for years and this last stunt is of such an epic level, I guess that's why I want out, and now I am prepared to take whatever opportunity comes my way to do that..."

"really? have you heard yourself? what you are saying is, that I have brought all this shit to our door, and I'm to blame for the situation we are all living in right now?, what fucking part of this have I encouraged or staged in anyway to bring as you call it bullshit to your door Dot?"

she turned her head, and walked to the window and looked out across the green.

"You gonna answer me?"

she turned, "No I'm not, I've said alls I want to say."

"Man you are a full on faced shit bitch...."

she mocked as she repeated "Shit bitch?"

"Fuck you D"

"no Jon, I'm not fucked, you are...."  she strode to the door, then turning she looked back over her shoulder, "I'm so outta here..." then she was gone.

the twin, clapped her hands in mock applause, "well, well, well, all is not sitting well in the Bongiovi house is it.... and your  little friend there is out cold too... so now it's really is just you and me...."

she dragged the knife along my cheek bone and under my chin onto my neck and hovered the blade around my adams apple.

"your eye's tell me your scared Jon... now why would that be I wonder..."

"how about the rape Antonia, have you forgotten what you and your goons did to me?"

"Antonia?, who is Antonia?, did I say I was Antonia? no, I didn't, and right now, I don't know if I want you to know who I am... and that's how its gonna stay..." she sat next to me, still with the knife at my throat she, taunted..."Rape you say, Oooh do tell me more..."

I remained silent, she dug the sharp end of the knife into my neck just above my adams apple, I felt the warm trickle of blood run down my neck. "you want me to dig harder? you want your vocal chords cut so you will be a real life mute, or you gonna tell?"

I held my hand up, "Ok, ok, but do my a small favour and call the medic for Madison, she aint done jack to you?, look at her man, she's out of it and needs attention..."

"Oh I don't think your in any position to bargain right now do you? so I ask once again and once only, tell me about the rape."

her eye's were glinting and I saw behind them a rage that held no bounds.